Sam

For as long as I can remember, I’ve struggled with chest dysphoria. Even as a child, I felt uncomfortable with the idea of developing breasts. I hated wearing bras and would often get in trouble at school because I refused to wear them. The sensation was overwhelming, and because I have very sensitive skin, bras often left painful marks and bruises. At the time, I didn’t have the words to explain what I was feeling, I just knew something didn’t feel right. As I got older and started to better understand my identity, those feelings never went away. My chest has always felt out of place and living with that disconnect has affected me every day. I avoid certain clothes, layer up even when it’s uncomfortable, and constantly find myself trying to hide or minimize my chest. It’s never felt like a part of me. Instead it’s felt like something I’ve had to work around for most of my life. My experiences have also been shaped by being assaulted as an adult. Since then, my chest has become even more closely tied to feelings of vulnerability and discomfort. Rather than feeling safe and at home in my body, I often feel exposed. Carrying those feelings day after day has been exhausting. Top surgery is an important step in my gender affirming journey. It’s about creating a life and a body that feel right for me. In many ways, it feels like becoming the person I’ve always wanted the freedom to be. I want to move through the world with more confidence, comfort, and authenticity, without the constant weight of dysphoria holding me back. I want to feel more at home in my own skin. I recently had my consultation with Dr. Haruko Okada, and I’m excited to finally be moving forward with this process. The funds raised will help cover the costs of surgery, medical expenses, recovery, travel, and other related expenses. If you’re able to donate, thank you from the bottom of my heart. If you can’t, sharing this fundraiser would mean just as much. Every donation and every share brings me one step closer to this life changing surgery. Thank you for taking the time to read my story and for supporting me on this journey. Your kindness, encouragement and support mean more to me than I can express.