Rusne Vanagaite

Hi, my name is Rusne, I come from a small town in Lithuania, but I currently live in London, UK. I just turned 23 years old. Let's cut to the chase! At 19, I was studying at the University of Manchester, when my (then) "friend", asked me if he could stay with me for a week or two. Before I knew it, the love-bombing started to become very serious. I fell for something that I didn't know would turn into an abusive narcissistic relationship. I dropped out of university, and we moved to London. A couple years after being with this guy, I discovered that he was cheating on me the entire time. By then, he'd convinced me to spend my savings, even tried to get me to use my parents' money. As soon as I found out, I knew I had to get away. Then the aggression started to show. He could not let me go, but hated me at the same time, and wanted to hurt me as badly as he could. Fast forward to two/three months ago, he sneaked into my property. Proceeded to coerce me to sleep with him. After getting told to leave he physically assaulted me, thrashed me around my own room, withheld me getting out or using my phone to call someone, and restricted me with all his strength until there were marks on my arms. This was not the first time he got physically violent and abusive. We'd been broken up for 2 years by now and he does not stop trying to enter my life no matter how much I don't want it. He comes to my area every weekend "to play basketball with friends". The person is not to be underestimated and when he goes violent, he sees red. His self-image is the most important thing for him to protect, even through he is a monster to those that truly know him. My life has been stifled by all the lies. My name has been dragged through the dirt, when I was the most helpful person to him at one point. I am so tired. After the final assault I closed myself off from society and self-medicated. My family is not the type to jump to my rescue. `I am more or less on my own. I thought I was strong until I saw that I was not getting back up again. I will be coming up to 3 months of missed rent payments of £880 each. If anyone has the ability to help me, however much, I'd greatly appreciate it. I am a bright young person still with so much life in me, but ever since dealing with this, it felt like everything was so bad, and my livelihood and happiness was taken away from me. I have dreams of having a creative career as I have always been like that. I am fair, I love equality and human rights, and if I ever make more than enough money from my career, I would love to help others who are in true distress and facing injustice in their life. Thank you to everyone reading, and may you be blessed in your life. Rusne, xx.