Since my youth, I've known my first duty is to serve the Lord. I grew up in a family where opening the door and bringing those who needed shelter and love was a form frust (Latin for proof positive). This meant I'd come home from school to find that my mother had moved a mother and children into my room as I bunked where I could. As a swimmer, I shared with girls from around the country to swim. My uncle's buddies from Vietnam often spent long stints. I adopted two sons; the first I anticipated his future. The second I was incredibly hopeful for his future. In the beginning, his comedic mischief kept me laughing. At age 10, his behavior dramatically changed and clear sociopathy emerged. At 19, he strangled me until I arrested. He ultimately performed CPR, broke my ribs, stole my phone, car, and wallet, and left me with my older son to tend to me. I regained consciousness 4 hours later. The number of times between 10 and 19 years of age I called SAPD exceeds 40. I have prayed vigilantly. All my Christian and other brothers and sisters have implored that I write the book. I write well, can tell a story in a captivating way, and have great passion. This story needs to be written documenting not only the trauma yet the deception of the state, the failures of the system, the reactions of people I believed truly loved me and those who supported my decisions, and the incredible support and prayers from those people I have served my whole life. I am ready to write. My dialogue with people has been rife with, "You need to write a book." I can and will do it with passion, truth, faith, and capture people's hearts to love those of us who are willing to "Open The Door".