NOTE: I didn't wanna have to come on here & do this but I don't think I got a choice. Feels wrong to say donate so I'm calling it a tip jar, I'll elaborate. I feel ashamed, guilty and embarrassed to make one of these types of post which isn't like me. Unfortunately due to circumstances I got to, I wasn't taught to reach out for help I had to learn that myself growing up otherwise how else would anyone know? I'll summarise my dilemma. Myself & my ex use to live with his father,step mum,3 dogs,younger bro and I was pregnant council gave us 2 choices between 2 flats. They knew I was getting close yet gave us a one bed that was barely stable. We moved in, months later dads house was set a blaze 3 dogs and step mum passed his bro & father escaped it but dad was injured. We had issues mentally/emotional the past 3-4yrs slow repairs some aren't done council don't care.

Ex's documents were in the fire & myself got no national insurance number either 9mons ago we applied to get em sent out recently called up & we got 2 mons, ex has no job neither do i he's tryin to find loose ends together. They were gonna extend it longer than 2mons they shortened it..Recently scrapyard job w/his mates closed down becuz too much competition, didn't have a great Christmas, ex did a scan was told he had 2yrs to live at most w/out treatment w/it 5yrs, his condition is genetic meanwhile I'm reaching out to the gp because I haven't been physically well for the past 2-3 years, symptoms progressed, speculating that I might have cachxiaa or as of now I have no idea.My aim is to get through January till the 19th so I can reapply YouTube monetisation so i can try & get back on my legs. There is one house I want to live in problem is getting the resources to diy it some rooms are already completed by my ex who's struggling on a daily basis he needs resources to finish it up.. I feel pathetic, I feel like a burden, it's hard to even come on here & put into words just how hazardous the flat is& miserable I am meanwhile I'm just trying to live in delulu land telling myself everything is going to be okay. Ty so so much for the 3 people that have given me bits every now & I'M NOT FORCING no one!❤️

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