Hello,

My name is Jenna. I am almost 27 years old. I have 2 beautiful, innocent and truly heaven-sent baby girls. I have a man that has never given up on me nor the person he knows I am called to be. I have a huge family that i know loves me more than I can put into words. I have everything I could ever want. God has not left me with a heart bold enough to ask for more.

& here I am. Being as profoundly honest and vulnerable as one can be asking for your help. Most of you know or suspect my current and decade long battle with addiction. I have always believed that I could overcome this problem on my own. I have blamed God for allowing me to suffer with this problem and not just heal me as I know He could so easily do. My question has always been why? Why is this my cross to carry and not anything else in this world?

Please hear me when I say, addiction is not a matter of not caring. It is not a matter of willpower. It is not a mother chosing drugs over her children. It is not a lack of character or morale. It is not simple. It is not a choice. Addiction is powerful. It is a destroyer of families, it hardens the most beautiful of hearts. It completely engulfs the one who is suffering from it but also everyone who loves them. It is complete darkness.

I am now at a place in my life where I feel like I actually have a choice. I have finally felt hope. True hope that this is not even the beginning of what God has planned. I know, according to His word in 1 Peter where it says, "Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy."

I am asking for your help in being able to provide me the means through rehabilitation and counseling to help me with this journey of being able to finally begin to rejoice in my sufferings so that God may use me as His vessel to use me in however He has planned. I know asking for money is not the most proper or respectful ways to go about doing this. But I am here in the most humble of hearts to ask anyway. I'm doing this despite the judgement, criticism, and fear because I have never wanted something so much but to be freed from this. We have tried every other option and we are at a point where I am willing to be transparent with my problems if it means I can live to ensure my children have a mother who they deserve, an opportunity to live life righteously and begin this pursuit of who God has called me to be. This is my only chance to start the healing needed to ensure that happens.

To be competely clear, all money donated will not go to me. But a family member of mine who has offered with a servants heart to help me begin this process of healing. I am asking for help to fund how long I am able to stay in an environment so desperately needed for me to come out of this, not only alive. But free from the chains meant to keep me a prisoner.

Thank you for whatever you can donate. Thank you for reading if you can't donate. & Please pray for me and for my family during this trying and very complicated beginning to a journey I know God will use to magnify His glory and grace.

With the most appreciative heart,

-Jenna