English Family

I am creating this fundraiser to help a family very dear to us.. I'll copy Stacy's post to explain what they are going through right now.. We want to help ease any financial burden for this family and when the time comes they know we all have their back..Please donate any amount you can but above else send lots of prayers..Stacy story below..

"My mom was diagnosed with Myelofibrosis, which is a rare bone marrow cancer. We only found out when we took her to the hospital a little over 3 weeks ago, because she stopped responding and eating. Her blood count was critically low. They did several blood transfusions and platelet transfusions. When she had her strength back, they asked her if she'd like to keep fighting. That she'd have to probably come in for blood transfusions weekly or so but that this was incurable. My momma wanted to fight. More than 1 dr and social worker asked me at least 6 times in 24 hours if this is what we wanted and I of course said as long as my mom wants to be here, we will do whatever it takes. I go home that night and go back the next day and my mom tells me they told her they weren't going to do anymore transfusions. I was so traumatized by that, because why ask us if you knew you weren't going to do it. Why not just say there's nothing more you can do. Instead you ask, and that let's me know my mom wanted to be here. She wasn't ready to give up. She wanted to fight as long as she could. I can't get over that part. It mentally messes with me everyday. So she wanted to come home that day, so we pressed them to get her out of there and she's been home ever since on hospice. They took her off all her meds and for the 1st couple of weeks, she was present and it was a blessing to take care of her and for all of us to have time with her. This last week has been toture to say the least. Watching her decline so quickly not physically as much as mentally, because physically she's been needing us to do all the things. She has been unable to move her body, other than her arms, for quite some time. But mentally she's always been right there, sharp as ever. There are no words to explain taking care of her during this process. She hasn't called me by my name in a week. She calls out to my Aunt Kathy and her momma. Which have both passed away. I don't care what she calls me, it just makes me wonder what's her mind is going through. I know how important her mind is to her. When she's awake, she's confused and anxious and sad and you can tell she's so lost in what's happening to her. I just do my best to reassure her, that I'm here and caress her and calm her. There were several situations where it was a first, where I wasn't really sure how to calm her. I was just holding her crying silently cause i didn't know how to make her better. I'm thankful that the hospice nurses will come out immediately when called to get her the meds she needed and dose she needed to calm her restlessness. Now I know a little more, on when to medicate her to keep her from getting to that point. Hospice nurses are angels, but I can see why people would want to help their loved ones pass. That sounds terrible but until you're witnessing it everyday, it almost seems cruel for them to be here. I hate it. I hate watching her suffer. But I'm also so thankful to be the one that she has. I know she's being loved and I know she's not alone and my momma trumps whatever heart ache I'm going through. She was always so independent and stubborn so she passed that stuff onto me and ain't no way my sorrow will have me quit on her. I'm just saying all this because I know our pain might show in public and that way yall don't have to ask. I can't tell yall how much I need yall to pray for my kids. They are so kind and helpful and loving during this time to me and their grandma. But I know they are caught between being strong and being there for me and struggling with their own breakdowns. Please be kind to them, but also don't ask them about it, mine don't really feel comfortable being emotional with other people. If they need to talk, then of course, if they bring it up, its ok to talk to them. Just offer a hug and maybe I love you or a smile, otherwise. I'm sry to all the people that have lost their Momma's. I don't think we ever expect this day to come. It's just such a wake up call to the, "you blink and it's over," saying. I just can't believe we're here. I'm thankful to my husband who has done so much to help me and my momma during this time. He's also been an angel. Seeing him step up when he can to give me a moment is everything."