We need Your help!!

          Hello, My name is Christine and I need your help. My home is in desperate need of a new roof. There is a foundation issue. The side of my home is cracking and it’s only getting worse. We live in the mountains on a hill. And when it rains much of everything washes away. Please help us, so we can repair and make the area safe to live. I have two young daughters. 

            Julissa, She just turned 7. Brielle, who Turned 5 in January. I am currently in the process of a divorce after being together for 17 years and married for 12 years. it has been a rollercoaster least to say. My daughters were 1 and 3 years of age when we were separated. It all happened when Covid hit. The courts have been on a huge back delay. It has been a hard journey. But, at the same time, I always have to stay positive and look to what will be. Instead of focusing on the problems and my situation. Because if I focus on the negative. I become stuck and depressed. Verses being joyful and thankful. I always tell myself, I know many have it worse than I. This in itself allows me to be content with what and where I am in life. As bad as I want to flip this chapter of my life, I have to wait on the courts.

          I want to tell you a little about myself. I am a mother of two beautiful girls. I am Jordanian. I love to write and draw. I am self taught on everything I do in life. I am charismatic, I love nature, I am caring, giving. I enjoy reading and listening to music. I have stopped doing what I loved for so long. But now I am getting back to my roots again. It feels so good to feed the soul with things that make you smile. I love to be silly and I try to enjoy life to the best of my abilities. My daughters and I try to make others happy. Even if we are not. Knowing they’re others who will smile. It’s a blessing to make others smile. We love to bless others when we can. I love to volunteer when I can. In Paterson NJ or wherever they need help. Currently dealing with my divorce. I have to and I must stay positive. Even when I want to cry and Everything is crumbling in front of me. I will speak positively and encourage myself with a positive affirmation. It’s not always easy..

        We need your help!!!  When I bought this house. It needed a new roof. Now after 5 years of zero care, it's just deteriorating. I currently have a family of squirrels living in my roof. A mother squirrel just gave birth to 4 or 5 baby squirrels. They are tearing up all the wood. Scratching at everything. I am truly concerned with this. I have called an exterminator and they said there is nothing they can do. Due to the roof's condition. I have no money to hire a roof company. The back of my house has a huge foundation issue. I don’t want my home to fall apart. 

         This is the only place where my daughters are safe and feel at home. I don’t want everything in their lives to disappear. I need them to feel security. When I bought this house in 2015. a year later I gave birth to my 1st born 4/2016. I was pregnant with my 1st born when. I was working for a Chiropractic office. When I announced my pregnancy, I was terminated. Due to wrongful injustices. It caused extreme financial difficulties. 1/2018 I gave birth to my second child. This is when Our relationship had become more and more strenuous. Much has happened in that time frame. The middle of 2019 is when he left the house, then it was just my 2 daughters and my self. This is when my life fell apart. 

            Shortly after my life falling apart. Then, the pandemic happened in March 2020. So ever since then til the present time. My home has not received any care of maintenance or love. I have been doing my very best with raising two toddlers and keeping up my home all by myself. As well as dealing with my whole life being flipped upside down. It's been a challenge. I am ready for the best and worst of what life throws my way. 

  

          My heart’s been broken, people have crushed my spirit and the unimaginable has tried to bring me down.. But I am still here, still standing, still strong. There isn’t much anyone can do that hasn’t been done before. Those scars of emotional pain- I wears them proudly to remind me of where I’ve been. Those pieces of past broken hearts- I carry those bravely with me to insure that I will never makes those mistakes again. Those dents, scratches and bruises of guilt and regret- I have tucked them away just to remember that I am better now and not doomed to repeat those mistakes. I will never be perfect, but then, who wants to be. I just want the simplest of things in a most complex way: I know you do not know me. I am trying to help you understand my situation and circumstance. 

        I am here asking for Your Help. The only thing my daughters know is this home, that we live in. I do not want this home to fall apart. I would love to help restore its beauty. This house was built in 1968 and it also has some structural issues / foundations issues. I would love to create and restore its beauty for my daughters and myself. We Really need your help!! I know this divorce is putting a huge toll on my girls. I try to be the best I can for them. Everyone in my neighborhood loves my girls. We are always giving when we can. We love to bake yummy food and hand it out to our neighbors. 

       I Love to show my girls even though we are going through a ruff time. It is always better to give than to receive. I truly believe this is Truth. I do not want to lose this home due to my circumstance. The Town, the neighborhood and members who reside here are amazing, my daughters and I love our neighbors. The school system is amazing. My daughters love it here. It feels like home to us.

          I know there is more to my story. I do not know how much information I should share. I am trying a huge leap of faith. Writing my story. Not knowing who will read it. If anyone will read it. I have no idea. I have to trust and let go and let God. I believe the right person will read this. This person will have a great influence on helping us. So we will be able to start a new chapter in our lives. I am trying to get my life in order. Knowing my home needs a lot of TLC. I can not do this alone. We need Help!

        I hope one day I will get to publish a book. Having the privilege to share my testimony. Many people have read my writings. Tell me you should write a book. Or start a blog. I have been working on it for a few months. I know one day I will. I believe there is a process to ensure greatness. I believe it with all of my heart!!!! I have been through so much in my life. I know my story needs to be told. With the crazy storm, I am facing. I will continue to strive to be the best version of myself for my girls and I. 

             Honestly, I never thought I would be in this position. I have to say, I have no other choice. When the father to my girls. Hasn't helped pay a single cent in over 3 years. I am desperate. I do not like to ask for money.. but I know I can not do this alone. Would you find it in your heart to help these 3 girls out!!! This is a chapter in my life. It may be the biggest chapter in my life. But, It too shall pass. Nothing stays the same. We are always learning and progressing. 

             To whoever is reading this. I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank You. I truly believe what comes around goes around. We are all in this together. When we show love and gratitude. It creates a character within us. We become better humans. We ALL Need Love. I know I do. And my daughters do too.        

             Thank You. Smile for you are awesome and you are worthy of greatness. Never forget YOU are awesome. Your giving to help my daughters and I are beyond any words I can express. It truly means so much, knowing some people really care about other people. If you can not help to donate, but maybe you know someone who can. Please share this with them.. I truly believe in Helping each other.. 

 Have a Beautiful Butterfly Blessed Day