How are you? I am not really good at talking about myself or even asking for any sort of help, so please bare with me.
I am a mom, I am the mother of 2 kids, my kids are one 6 year old boy and a 3 year old girl. I've always been a responsible parent, I don't party, I don't do drugs, I am actually very nerdy. I am always with my kids and I don't leave them with anyone other than family because that's the type of parent I am. I am responsible and have always worked since I was 17 years old, and Im now 33 years old as of December 17.
Who I am:
I work in I.T, I am a desktop engineer. I have been working in the technology field my entire adult life. It is my passion. Technology is everything. It's excciting because it always changes. I also love acting so, I do that. My kids too.
I was in a very abusive relationship with a person that suffers from Narcissistice Personality Disorder, he was diagnosed. He is textbook malginant. He was the first person I dated in 7 years , and I thought I found Prince Charming but what I found out was that he was evil encarnate. He discardded me on July 23. He left.
After all he put me and my kids through, I decided that I wanted to be close to my kids and help them cope. In order to be more flexible for them I made a decision to start my own business. The week he left, I went ahead and registered the company. I waited for the approval. For the following month I built the website, I got the insurance and paperwork I needed. I invested 10k, the only money I had into this business.
The business started to operate officially in September.
It did great for the first two months. However, November and December have been dead.
The Reason I need the help:
Since my business stopped generating income for us, I had to use the funds it already made in the first two months and re-invest it into the company and pay for its needs, it's bills, it's utilities but also providing for my family with rent, utilities, insurance, food, car and more.
Providing for two places with a limited amount of funds can prove difficult since there is no other source of funds coming in to replace what it's being used.
What's Going On:
I have now run out of funds. My rent is due on the JAN 1st.
I have a dispossesion note. I have to pay this rent ASAP with it's late fees and all. I have many other things that are behind including 3 months of my car ( I cannot sleep because I keep worrying about my car being taken away this is causing me alot worries) my phone is due , my internet.
My insurance. Utilities.
The internet and phone are both really important for more than one reason, in this case they are not luxury utilities. I use the internet and phone as a tool for both work and school ( my son goes to school online GCA). When I am not working with my company I am freelancing writing for a network or building websites, fixing phones, tablets computers but I rely heavily on the internet and phone.
I even babysit and clean houses to try to sussist and stay above water but the amount of bills piling up and the speed in which they come in are overwhelming. What little I or my business makes gets swallowed immediately back into the Black Hole of debts.
With the NEW YEAR comes with its is basket of worries and concerns for many reasons. Rent, Car, Insurance, Utilities, My comapany's bills, salaries ect.
I am scared and angry because one does not start a business to be left with a worst situation than when you started. The reason people decide to start a business is for financial independence and to be in the opposite of "brokeness".
Believe me this is hard for me to sit here and ask strangers for help. I am that desperate, I do not know what else to do. However, I have to swallow my pride for my children. Again, I am an engineer, I have always been able to provide for myself, my kids, even help my mother out. Right now I cannot help myself.
THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL
I am supposed to start working in mid-January and I will be able to still manage my company. Hopefully I can drag it out of the mud in the new year. I have faith in it. With the safety net of a steady income of any type things will surely get better. However this job holds my first week of work (as most jobs do) and they also pay bi-weekly so, I do not expect to see a paycheck til Feb.
If you're reading this and you can help, please do so. I never in my life ever even imagined that I would be in this predicament that I find myself at in this moment. This can happen to anyone. One minute you're on top and next minute you're on the bottom. It's difficult accept. If you cannot help, that is OK too. Just share my story among your friends. Sharing is caring, my friend.
HAPPY NEW YEARS 2018
Iris & Fam
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