This is so wicked hard to write...

To those who ever cared,

Under God and my mother R.I.P. what i write below is unfortunate truth....

I apologize that you are reading this...

It's official, I have regretfully plead guilty in Federal Court in Maryland last week to "Conspiracy to launder money via Marijuana distribution"...I couldn't afford a 6 figure attorney so my public defender got me a plea deal after being on ankle monitor/home confinement for the last year and a half...I will do no less than 30 months and no more than 57 months in prison...I am sick about this yet i have no choice but to own it...As of today they cut my work hours in half and I am no longer allowed to drive uber at night...I am remanded to the house until I self surrender in July...I am now only allowed to drive Uber in the mornings until 2pm, Monday through Friday over the next 2 months until my sentence begins... Unfortunately this will barely keep food on the table...Alani was the only reason I was allowed ankle monitoring in the first place while i fought my case... I am also blessed and allowed to pick her up from school daily and bring her home...I live with Ria and care for Alani and be around my son daily which has also been a blessing...The federal government had it out for me and i've been treated as an axe murderer and given an excessive punishment considering the national legalization and decriminalization of Marijuana...I screwed up bad and made the wrong decision in 2020 to sell marijuana for only a few months in the D.C. Maryland area which i've come to find out has zero leniency/ tolerance for what i've done...I would not be in this situation if I had just stayed in California...Yes this whole problem dates back to 2020...Yes i only did what i did for a few months back then, yet here i am...Yes i am suffering with regret and remorse daily and the worst is ahead of me...

I've already accepted that I will lose my credit standing, not pay ANY personal or credit debts, not be able to contribute to Ria monthly, or be able to contribute to my kids schooling and life any longer...My only concern now is to survive prison which takes at least $250-$400 minimum monthly so I don't live like a rat and suffer... I will need commissary, cosmetics, clothing, prepaid phone credits, and extra food while incarcerated...There is no way Ria can shoulder any burden of helping me even if she wanted to...Ria has been beyond amazing letting me drive her car for uber, live in her garage, and she has stood by me more than I could have ever expected...

I am turning to friends and family now for help to get through this...I am close to the beginning of my incarceration...This has become my life's worst nightmare...I never dreamed I would be in this position financially or ever NEED to create a "Go fund me" for survival...(Please feel free to call me for any more details)...I ask you with my whole heart to please help me financiallyand pleaae pray for me...I will spare you many other depressing details and just simply say THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU and I'll NEVER FORGET the help you've given and that you were there for me in the darkest hours of my life..

....And of course it is my intention is to pay you back one day in life...I am turning 54 in May...I will be released as a 57-59 year old man with nothing yet I promise you I will carry my head high at that time...(30 months MINIMUM X $250=)...

...And I honestly need a tooth extraction before I go...

Sincerity, courage, and gratefulness,

Nick

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