I have survived 9 years of an extremely toxic marriage and this September would be the 10th year but I cannot continue to live like this. I have had to endure several traumatic experiences, mental, verbal, emotional, and a couple of times physical abuse. I've been isolated from family and I lost friends because they didn't like them and made me stop talking to them. I finally realize I do not deserve this, I finally realize it is not my fault, and I finally realize I need to choose myself no matter how scary it is. I need to leave and I need help to be able to leave. I work full time, I am in school fulltime, but I need help to escape to my own apartment and my own car. I very much appreciate you even taking the time to read this. Any help is greatly appreciated and valued.