I can't believe I am even writing this, but let's start.

If you know me, you've likely heard of, seen or met my cat Sammy. I've probably shown you one or 50 photos of him. Our story started almost 13 years ago and is now coming to an end, at least here on earth.

Sammy came into my life right when I needed him, and has been by my side every step of the way. Many of us have pets in our lifetime and I think many can agree, there's always that ONE - the one that you'll never get over, the one you compare all the rest to; that's my Sammy. My soul cat.

Two weeks ago I took him to the vet because he was behaving differently and he was due for his yearly wellness visit anyway. What the vet found blindsided me - Sammys chest was full of fluid - (pleural effusion) and it was putting a great deal of pressure on his lungs/breathing. This was an emergency and the choice was either to put him on hospice immediately or take him to the ER.

Sammy went to the ER. They were able to drain 200ml of fluid from his chest and did several labs, tests, scans and X-rays. I needed to wait for more of the labs to come back, so Sammy came home. Over the course of the 2 weeks there have been ups but several downs.

ALL of the labs came back without a 100% diagnosis. Since Sammy has pleural effusion (the fluid in the lungs) it will keep coming back, even if they drain it and likely more and more frequently. All of the corroborating evidence points to lymphoma but no firm answer. No option for a cure, a surgery. Nothing.

Today we saw our regular vet one last time and she agreed that all of the signs point to the fluid beginning to affect his comfort levels and breathing again. It is likely that he will need to be euthanized before it becomes unbearable.

While I know I will never be ready to let him go, I promised him that I would do everything I could to keep him comfortable. I am currently researching and looking into scheduling his at home euthanasia within the next week or two (based on his level of wellness).

Sammy has always been my angel, his form has been the shape of steadfast love, comfort and loyalty. I will forever miss his form, and I will look for it for the rest of my days and in every other version of time and space.

I started this Go Fund Me because I have had several friends reach out and ask how they can help.

With all of Sammy's vet expenses as well as the at home service, I would appreciate any help with the associated costs. These funds will help cover his vet bills, the at home service and cremation so that in some way he will be returned to me, always.

Thank you for reading, and thank you for any support that feels right for you.