I am a disabled 32-year-old AFAB (she/he/they) who is in fight or flight mode right now.

I have nobody left in my immediate family except for my three cats. I lost my sister to Type 1 Diabetes on October 26th, 2005, while she was in a medically induced coma and had five massive heart attacks. I witnessed my brother's death on January 15th, 2022, due to cardiac arrest. I also witnessed my mother's death on August 5th, 2025, due to cardiac arrest. Well, in March 2023, my mom and I had to move in with two abusive ex-friends of mine because we got evicted from the apartment me, my mom, and my brother lived at for 15 years. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to move out of my two abusers' homes until November 2025 and was able to live with a cousin until now.

He has given me either until March 15th, 2026, or March 31st, 2026, to find a place of my own or, otherwise, I will have to move to Mississippi with his abusive dad, his dad's abusive alcoholic wife, and their two dogs. The only problem is that I would have to get rid of my three cats because his dogs tend to kill cats for sport. Not only that, but he lived with and verbally abused me, my mom, and my brother for seven consecutive years. And to add icing to the cake? About 99.9% of my extended family are all abusive, and they have never taken my immediate family (me, my mom, my brother, and my sister) seriously and considered us as outcasts. They don't even know that I'm a genderqueer aroace who loves all genders due to them being religious zealots and Far-Right Republicans.

I want to continue living in Illinois because I very much like my doctor, counselor (therapist), psychiatrist, and social worker. Not only that, but I am still in the process of getting approved for Disability (which I re-applied for back in September 2025). I need money for me and my three cats to stay in a hotel until I can find permanent residency, a job (or disability ... whichever comes first), or both. I need to get away from my abusive family.