For the sake of absolute complete and total privacy and safety involving our location, and the people around us and their identities, we'll be using pseudonyms for involved individuals. Seeing as other than myself, the individuals in this GoFundMe who you may know if they share with you, have unsafe and unstable people in our life to our wellbeing. Should they find this.

Because I'm not the only one in need this time around.

You all know parts of my story. And it's some dark stuff. If you're unaware, my last GoFundMe campaign has the information. But there's even more to it.

From 18 years old until this March. (2026), me and my system were trauma bonded in an abusive, long term, on and off relationship. Emotionally, physically, financially, and sexually at some points. It became a dangerous situation for our wellbeing where it came down to life and death a little over six months into moving with our now ex fiance and his emotionally incestuous, trans/queerphobic, ableist, and racist family.

From September to March of 2026 we moved in with our now ex fiance at the request of his family. Wed been apart for years online in another state, and I trusted him. And didn't see many red flags, and had hope for my future.

I've been left physically, emotionally, and psychologically bruised and scarred. It got so bad at some point in December I attempted my life and was threatened if I ever did so again by his mother. When I would try to leave, I'd be chased down in a car up and down the road and brainwashed into getting back to the house being told I wasn't allowed to leave, threatened with homelessness and retraction of support if I attempted to do so.

When I did escape, they attempted to convince someone to lock me in their trunk as a means to hold me hostage, and told police I'm “low functioning autistic” to get me back. Even though I left of my own free will, in sound mind and body.

Im thankfully finally safe, at the cost of uprooting my life no warning and leaving many things behind I didn't plan for, such as people, medical resources needed, and the place I grew up, having moved halfway across the country to state I've never been.

I've lost sleep from the nightmares induced by the sexual and emotional trauma often having to be woken up from crying in my sleep, and it's made my (now diagnosed as of the last campaign) lupus flare the next day or so when I can't sleep.

I've developed seizures possibly from the trauma induced panic attacks, or in general wasn't observed with genuine care enough for them to have noticed. But these seizures have impacted me greatly in unforeseen ways with my memory, cognitive understanding, brain fog, and even the ability to understand complex concepts or reading like I used to. It can take me a half hour to read 10 pages from a YA novel.

And that's not the only part of this story. That's only my portion. Not the other I've been asked to share.

The individuals who were the ones to notice I was being abused and spoke up with a plan of escape, I'll give pseudonyms for are the ones I'm talking about.

Strawberry and Blueberry. Two fellow disabled lgbt systems who us and our system would give the world over for. Blueberry and strawberry were in a home that was so severely impacted by decay, mold, filth, and even a severe mouse infestation at the neglect of the owner of their residence who also abused them; that they've lost over 1000+ in belongings even escaping themselves. The house was so severely disgusting and unlivable, it underwent quarantine by state mandation after they escaped.

Along with severe affects to their own disabilities that have made it harder to function with flare ups and chronic pain from this traumatic situation.

Even under these circumstances, they graciously opened their doors and home. My escape and their own overlapped mere days apart, and we had been speaking with them consecutively for a month or two.

Due to disability funds as it stands, our system are the only ones with a stable form of income if only minimal, and even a portion of this was cut recently due to unknown reasons. We've been given help by two very well-off in society individuals, who are kind and resourceful, with plenty of ability to have helped us, who I'll refer to as Cat and Panda.

This included getting us a bus ticket

Food

The ability to take a plan and drive back from our ex's fiance’s

Hotel for a week until they could help us lease our apartment.

As it stands, they dipped into their savings to help us.

Cat and Panda are within the 10k range in the hole. They are able to work and afford for themselves, but there's a weight on their shoulders none of us wanted them to have, but they were kind and put themselves forward for us in need.

We are not asking for the weight of that completely wiped with the internets donations. But we are asking for whatever you can give, to at least near half of that or even just up to 3’000 to help with some expenses to give them some relief.

I cannot work due to my disability such as lupus, pre-cancer, and various other undiagnosed conditions that I have to afford medical for and gives me chronic pain, multiple seizures in the past month, and autoimmune compromised issues.

Blueberry and strawberry are also unable to work, especially strawberry with some chronic pain they also shoulder.

Blueberry, being the more physically strong one, has taken up a fair share of helping Cat and Panda, as part of an agreement to help with the debt, but even their disability can result in painful muscle spasms in their back that render them unable to even move from the floor from the pain at times, lest they faint.

Strawberry has a very bad knee and limited mobility with chronic pain that flares and worsens when standing and working, only just within the past years getting out of a wheelchair for undisclosed reasons.

I've suffered multiple seizures in the span of a month that have rendered me unable to do physical and mental tasks, and just experienced a significant and sudden loss of a friend to suicide, rendering me unable to work on the hard days from the combined grief and lack of sleep, combined with lupus flare ups from the stress and trauma.

We also have three cats to afford and care for, mine is a rescue who I'm trying to get a better diet than the one he was fed by his previous owner for his health. As well as pet fees.

We want to help this burden. And we ask for your understanding during this severely traumatic transition for us all.

Thank you so much and with so much love.

Signed Blueberry, Strawberry, and Sugar.

Three disabled queer systems who are just trying to get by in this world, after severe trauma and a limited support system.