Starting a Forever Family

Today is my birthday. It is a strange experience with getting to a stage of my life where I imagined I would have it all planned out, and still finding out that the universe has different plans. As some of you know Martin and I recently became foster parents. In April we were able to welcome 3 lovely kids into our home, and despite them referring to me as their "foster mom", and their biological parents as their "real mom and dad" I felt like I had achieved everything I wanted (a family and a job). In July the courts decided to move the kids to their cousins house because the ultimate goal of foster care is to reunite kids with their biological family. I am genuinely happy for them, because they are happy. When we dropped the kids off at their cousin's house they asked if I would come to their birthdays, making me feel that some part of them loved me, and I promised I would come if they invited me. Since they left our home the biological family has wanted nothing to do with us, which left me feeling empty.

Since we have gotten approved for foster parents 4 kids have come into our home, and 4 have "graduated" to go on to stable homes and their biological family. I love them while they are in the house, and I cry when they go.

So this birthday when people ask me what I want, I desperately want to say "kids that call me mom," and I want to be someone's "forever mom." But instead I have told people that I have had everything I could ever ask for because I love my husband, our dog, and my career. I know people on Facebook often raise money for charities, and this year I am raising money for an adoption (~$50,000 total for lawyer fees and adoption). Right now I have been working two jobs, and could get there in 5 years, but I am hoping to be a mother to multiple children sooner than that.

 

Anything would be appreciate. Even $1 gets me $1 closer to being someone's long-term forever mother. My venmo is @Destenie-Nock My Cash-App is $dsnock

 

Thank you, and Happy Friday!

 

P.S. Some people have suggested in the DM that I look into infertility. I am currently doing that. One of the things I would like is to have a blended family with both biological and adopted kids.