Lorna & Lee's Baby Fund
Donation protected
In 2012 Lee and I started our journey to parenthood earlier than anticipated. Our Doctor told us to “go home and start now” after reviewing my age and erratic menstrual cycle. After the devastating loss of our first baby (Bracken) in early pregnancy, we relocated to Northern Ireland and were referred to a gynaecologist. Blood tests revealed I have Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome and I don’t ovulate.
Although high dose Clomid resulted in eggs, we did not get the baby we longed for. My high hormone levels mean I am pre-menopausal, with extremely low egg reserve. I release eggs before they are mature enough to be fertilized. After four long and difficult years, our journey to parenthood came to an abrupt and heart wrenching stop.
My heart shattered along with all our dreams of having a tiny baby to love and care for. Lee has been my inexhaustible source of strength, lifting me from dark places, holding me close in the tidal waves of guilt and shame of not being able to give us the gift we so long for, and shame for not feeling like a real woman.
With no viable eggs of my own, our only option is “egg donation.” Having researched all the avenues, we are going to go with GCRM, a private clinic in Belfast, for our treatment. We have set our target at £10,000 at the very maximum for all treatment.
I will turn 40 in January. The older I get, the less likely it is for treatment to be successful. We are hoping to begin this year to ensure we have every possible chance to successfully carry our little miracle to full term.
Both Lee and I work with children. I have nannied for over 20 years, I have raised babies, but had to hand them back. Lee is a Classroom Assistant, and the children think he is great. My ‘Nanny’ children fall in love with him when they meet him. The longing to have children of our own, children we don’t have to hand back at the end of the day, ever increases as time goes by. We fluctuate between grief, fear and optimism as we enter into the next phase of our journey to parenthood.
Thank you for reading our story.
Much love,
Lorna and Lee.
xoxo
Although high dose Clomid resulted in eggs, we did not get the baby we longed for. My high hormone levels mean I am pre-menopausal, with extremely low egg reserve. I release eggs before they are mature enough to be fertilized. After four long and difficult years, our journey to parenthood came to an abrupt and heart wrenching stop.
My heart shattered along with all our dreams of having a tiny baby to love and care for. Lee has been my inexhaustible source of strength, lifting me from dark places, holding me close in the tidal waves of guilt and shame of not being able to give us the gift we so long for, and shame for not feeling like a real woman.
With no viable eggs of my own, our only option is “egg donation.” Having researched all the avenues, we are going to go with GCRM, a private clinic in Belfast, for our treatment. We have set our target at £10,000 at the very maximum for all treatment.
I will turn 40 in January. The older I get, the less likely it is for treatment to be successful. We are hoping to begin this year to ensure we have every possible chance to successfully carry our little miracle to full term.
Both Lee and I work with children. I have nannied for over 20 years, I have raised babies, but had to hand them back. Lee is a Classroom Assistant, and the children think he is great. My ‘Nanny’ children fall in love with him when they meet him. The longing to have children of our own, children we don’t have to hand back at the end of the day, ever increases as time goes by. We fluctuate between grief, fear and optimism as we enter into the next phase of our journey to parenthood.
Thank you for reading our story.
Much love,
Lorna and Lee.
xoxo
Organizer
Lorna Broomfield-Carradus
Organizer