I'm a recovering addict who lost his job in ny state because I committed a felony in 2005. Now because of some stupid law I could no longer work at my employ because it's a licensed bar and I'm an ex-felon. Now with Christmas here and three kids all expecting Santa clause to pay them a visit, on top of 2500 dollars in monthly Bill's, I just dont know how I'm gonna do it. A long time ago someone said a closed mouth wont get fed, so here I am hoping that someone out there can help me through this hard time. I have never asked for help in all my 30 years of struggle now I dont have a choice and it's not a fun place to be. 

Before you think I am just here with my hand out I will pay any donations back when I'm back on my feet or I'll pay it forward to someone else in need. I am seeking employment as well just wont find anything that in 4 days and a few weeks will get me what I need for the holidays and Bill's. 

I dont want to give up, I've come to far in this life. Thanks for reading and any help you can give. Sincerely