Support Jonathan's Recovery Journey

Hello. I’m looking for help, “Slash” Jonathan. I have overcome a lot in the past year. My

amputation from my motorcycle accident in 2023 has had quite a few set backs. Some of

my closest friends, Clayton and Brittany, picked me up off the streets in the freezing cold

with a back pack, sitting in a wheelchair at Union Station in Denver. They got me to detox,

from there I went to sober living, made a poor decision to invest in sober living homes, and

eventually made it to my own apartment with a new service dog Fred.

I certified 72 hrs of recovery coach education classes and am going to get into the field,

Clayton helped me get a prosthetic and coached me through a lot of trauma. I did all the

work to rehab for that in just a couple short months then with a bit over 9 months clean and

sober something went sideways and alcohol came back into my life. I was sick, very sick,

and honestly believed my 99 lives were used up. I made peace with myself and was

prepared to shut down this journey. After breakdowns in December and January and

spending Christmas and New Years in the hospital, the doctors convinced me “ You ain’t

dead yet motherfucker” so I came to the realization to start IOP treatment, that would be

my best start to make a comeback. With that, I can work on my recovery while stabilizing

my future. We have someone to look after Fred when needed, but Fred needs food, vet,

park passes, safety and stability, and we both need to save our apartment, without an

eviction on my record and living in my car again.

The post I requested to Clayton below:

“ The favor is if you would start a Go Fund Me for Fred and I so we don’t already get evicted

from our new beautiful apartment, so I can get my bills caught up, take care of Fred, keep

my car maintained, food, gas, veterinarian, etc. Yes, I had a relapse/slip. With a

combination of the CDiff, nova virus, pancreatitis, and now possibly cirrhosis. I thought I

was going to just die, and I gave up. But I’m back and I’m putting myself into IOP. It is the

next right thing and as a Recovery Coach it is absolutely responsible to hold myself

accountable. The rehab at Foundry in Steamboat Springs cannot medically approve me

because of my disability. The world labels, stigmatizes, and judges, and I only trust maybe

3 people at this point. I came off the streets with 1 leg in a Wheelchair. I have accomplished

a lot in the past year with sobriety, advocacy, support, all my Peer Coaching Certifications

and helping the guys that came through our sober living homes. Now I’m on the verge of

losing everything AGAIN in my life, and honestly scared I’m dying with all these health

issues. I had jobs all lined up to Peer Coach with a few different companies. I could have

kept this quiet and put another skeleton in my closet, but the responsible thing to do is the

12 step this situation : Honesty, Hope, Faith, Courage, Integrity, Willingness, Humility, Love,

Responsibility, Discipline, Spiritual Awareness and Service. I’ve been reaching out to every

program available to me, but there are no guarantees on assistance. I’m asking a couple of

people to help with GFM to cover my bases, relieve anxiety, PTSD etc. I’ve started over

probably 20 times, and my health isn’t great and I just want to salvage what I have and

move forward. My dumb ass is to worn out, unhealthy, and old for this shit. I’ve been

wanting to see you so I could be an OG face to face and admit to you by looking in your eyes

so you could see the heart in mine”

Yes, I had a relapse/slip. It sucks, I take % responsibility and accountability. It happened,

and I could share some stressors, but not on this platform. With a combination of the CDiff,

nova virus, pancreatitis, and now liver disease. I thought I was going to just die, and I gave

up. Fortunately a couple people really cared enough to help me back out of my shit. I’m

back! And I’m putting myself into IOP and sticking to my tribe to restore my integrity (and

sanity). I have reached out to Red Point in Longmont for their services.

As I try to stabilize my living situation and make a commitment to IOP, I will reevaluate

rehab, it’s the next right thing and as a Recovery Coach it is absolutely the responsible thing

to do. IOP will begin next week and I will be working with my Trauma Therapist, Wellness

Coach, along with a Peer Recovery coach, meetings and the love and support Clayton

others provide me.

We all have our struggles and Clayton certainly has his own yet he has taken time and put

in a lot of effort to help me. Thank you!