I’ve had many life changes over the past few months.

After nearly twenty years of marriage, I’ve become a single mother, and my income has drastically changed. Time feels like it’s moving faster than I can grasp, yet I’m doing everything I can to stay centered and keep moving forward.

I own my home through an owner-financed mortgage, which means the former owner placed the deed in my name, but I pay him directly—there’s no bank involved. Our agreement states that I cannot be more than 30 days late on payments, or the home goes into foreclosure.

When my former husband told me that business revenue was shifting, I made the difficult decision to release the home—using whatever comes from the sale to move my children and cover other essential expenses. Now, as October begins, I find myself catching up on months that have slipped by too quickly.

Because this isn’t a traditional mortgage, I don’t qualify for government or county assistance programs that could help families in similar situations. And recently, I learned that several of my payments this year didn’t process successfully, leaving me owing multiple months of mortgage payments, late fees, and added interest. With a balloon mortgage, that also means the total balance due when selling the home is leaving me with barely anything.

Which is not what I had planned for.

Through all of this, I’ve continued to do deep inner work—mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. Staying rooted in the presence of All That Is has carried me through some of the hardest moments. My parents, friends, and family have been incredibly supportive, and I’m deeply grateful for them. Still, there are moments when it all feels heavy, and I’m reminded that asking for help is an act of faith.

I’ve been working tirelessly to care for my home and my children while continuing to build High Vibe Herbals, my wellness company that helps others find calm and clarity through tea. I love this work deeply, but business has been very slow these past few months.

Because of that, I am now looking for a job that allows me to use my skills while earning a salary that can fully cover my family’s needs. I waited longer than I should have to begin searching because I truly believed I could generate enough income through my business alone. Now, things are catching up faster than expected, and it feels like everything is tumbling down at once.

Earlier this year, I also committed to attending a transformational retreat in Bali which is an experience that aligns deeply with my personal and spiritual healing as I did on Costa Rica years ago. I’ve already paid toward the $3,400 total.

At this point, pulling out of the retreat would not only mean losing my deposit, but it would also put the organizers in a difficult position, as spots and logistics are finalized far in advance. I still trust that if I’m meant to be there, the path will unfold with grace.

I had so many plans for 2025, for myself and for my kids. Life looks different now, but I still believe in the beauty of what’s unfolding.

Every prayer, share, and dollar helps more than I can express.

Thank you for believing with me, for seeing me, and for helping me move forward with love.