Homeless with Kids: A Mother's Urgent Plea

I don't want to fail My beautiful children. I trusted in someone for support, and they've left us in the cold. I live to see smiles on their faces. Everything I do, I do for them. And Ive made some decisions that has let us down. I've been in and out of jobs for years, and I trusted the person when they asked me to stay home to be with the children because my kids would say she was being mean or hitting them whenever I left them with her. And when your children say something, you listen. And although I was still applying for employment, nothing was coming through.

We are now homeless, using my "squatters' rights" and now we have a week or so before we are physically evicted. We spent two weeks without power, and it killed me to see my children sweating and unable to sleep through the night from being over heated. so here I am with No help, no support. So we have no one but ourselves... They have me. I sold my car to get the electricity turned back on in our home, but now I'm down to the last of our food and resources. I've asked everyone I could think of for help, and now I'm up in the middle of the night contemplating life. As a mother, they know what's going on, but they don't understand. When I'm cooking on the grill, they think it's us having fun... The flashlights in the dark to hide the situation. The walking places to "keep us healthy," but now time is running out, and we have nowhere to go. And all I desire is to keep us together. They don't understand why Mommy doesn't eat until after they do. But they're so loving they'll make sure I eat as well, not knowing how they're blessing my heart... But I'm tired... And broken...

The landlord called me a few weeks ago demanding $4,400 and I had no idea the rent hadn't been paid in months. My ex was telling me she was paying everything and slowly everything else has been getting shut off item by item, phones, wifi, subscriptions.... I'm constantly looking for some sort of hustle, job or source of income besides just my hand out begging for help but at this point I am not above a sign on the side of the road. but these things are complicated without childcare and leaves me stuck with no availability to come up with money... My heart is so broken. I'm trying to gather the money for a place to live and get a new vehicle. I know this struggle won't be easy but I'm putting in the effort. With all good intentions I'm begging for a little support to help a mother get on her feet so we can live peacefully and get my children the things they need. Blessedly I'm not giving up because the Lord knows it's hard but I've got us into this mess so I'm putting my pride aside and doing everything possible to get us out of it. All donations will go to funding getting a roof over our heads a comfortable place to sleep transportation to and from work. But first I must put a roof over my head so that I will not be sleeping outside.