My name is Serena and I am 2nd oldest of four siblings. I started this gofundme to raise enough money for me and for my siblings to get our own housing. Our mother to our knowledge is an alcoholic and undiagnosed bipolar. She has kicked three of us older children out of the house at least once during our childhood, during one of her episodes, Eldest(aged17) Me (aged16) Youngest brother (aged17) also diagnosed with autism. Our ages are now Eldest(23) Me(20) Youngest brother(18). Our youngest sister is 12 years old, and has expressed thoughts to me of killing herself at just 11 years old, because of our mother. In january of 2024, I knew I had enough, when my mother kicked my little brother out of our home for talking with a girl online. she set a timer and gave him 10 minutes to put all of his things into a garbage bag, and he wandered the neighborhood in about 20 degree weather with no phone. I at the time, was visiting a college friend, and knew of nothing happening until the next morning. I rushed home the next day just to find that my mother had admitted my brother into a mental hospital and forcing him to therapy. This is just one of many things that our mother has done. Recently it has gotten worse. Our mother has not had a job for 3 years. She sits at home, in her room, nearly the entire day, barely coming out to get herself food. Imagine what our fridge looks like. Her boyfriend, also has no job, due to losing it to a dui since he drove trucks, as well as no home of his own, so he is an additional member to our “household”. She has no vehicle as it got repossessed, but she’s told everyone it was “stolen”. I am now the only one with a car in our household, a car that i bought all on my own, even when she doubted me saying “welcome to adulthood good luck getting anything on your own” ,my car is paid off. I have paid rent since 16, my mom forced me to pick up application papers as soon as i was legally able. My first job was 10 minutes down the street, but she said i have to find my own way to and from. Some nights i would have to stay an hour after closing just for a friend to pick me up, since i didn’t have any money to uber. When i was under 18 and unable to have my own account, i had a joint account with her, where she would even take money out of my account saying it was for things we needed for the house. This is also what she’s been somewhat doing to my brother. I love my siblings and know that my rent and car is what helps them as well. So helping is not my issue. It’s when i work so hard, just for someone that is the parent, to not. My mother kicks me out maybe once a month now. This recent month, has been serious, as she got upset with me defending my brother. After him getting off of work, he brought back some food and four slushies, obviously since there’s rarely anything in the house. my mother made a comment about the slushies which he replied back with a jab at her drinking problem. My mother started going crazy and starting to pick on every one of us. She then started to call my brother the R slur repeatedly and taunting him, saying he’s good for nothing. I then asked her why she would ever say something like that to her son that is autistic, and her reply was “because that’s what he is”. I told my mother we all need to calm down and stop going against each other and be a family. to that she said “you always think everything is unicorns and rainbows, well it’s not”. And that, broke my heart. for me to try and be positive and want to come together as a family , for her to not want it. and then i remembered, the time she said she doesn’t need any of us, and that we’re the ones that need her. she’s repeatedly always saying she’s going to leave us and the house one day, and let every utility get cut off, mind you, we went a whole 9 months this past year with no gas, meaning no hot water, no stove, oven, and heat, believe me, we bundled up with blankets and cheap space heaters every night, so it’s not something we’re not used to. My mother told me to never come back home after that, as she says she can’t have anyone that’s not on her side . All for defending my brother , when she was in the wrong. I now have no where to live as a fresh 20 year old college student , and worry for my siblings every day , as i’m always checking on them telling them to record any thing that happens if she starts again. I try my best to bring them food from my job and make sure i take my brother to work on the days he does. A part of me is happy that I got kicked out, because mentally it is draining to be brought down every single day, and not have a mother that loves you and that only cares about money from you and claims that she’s worked so hard to get to where we are, but we are barely hanging onto it by a thread. Every time entering that home, it is a depressing dark cloud floating over you. My brother is still in school, and so is my little sister. But if any of you can help support us and donate to our goal, we can have a better life by living together, me taking care of my brother and sister and trying to get legal custody over her . Anything helps, even kind words and advice. Thank you for reading all the way through, there’s much more that i will possibly be making a video of on my media platforms if i can muster the courage, as I will probably be getting backlash if my mother finds out about this. but i am tired of doing nothing and taking this mental abuse. i am tired of her abuse of power and wanting to be in control and always thinking she is right and never wrong. i am tired of her not being told off by anyone and continuing to live her life jobless and not supporting two children that need her. So i will continue to spread out story and speak up, because it is greater than just me.