Here we go..

I hate this. My ego hates this. And yes if you're wondering I feel like a complete loser. But I also I will do whatever I have to.

I have been working for six months to secure the refinance of my home.

When I got married I funded the purchase of this house (along we many other things we had to do to secure it) but could not be on the mortgage bc I didn’t qualify to a bank working as a freelance artist. Banks like stable good on paper people. So I trusted the person I was with to be be the sole name on the mortgage even though we both owned the home.

When we ended our relationship at the start of 2023, I had no idea it, would be such a painful process and be used to harm me in so many ways. Constantly dangling the home the kids and I lived in left me stressed and fearful. We agreed I would refinance in my name as i have been paying for the house since and when that process took longer than I hoped or planned, I was overwhelmed with the things that were done against me by people I once loved and trusted.

All I ever wanted was a house no one could take away from me. Growing up with constant housing insecurity, my life goal has been a home.

The last six months almost broke me but:

I have been approved and cleared to close.

I have paid off all my debt.

Last week the bank said there was unpaid tax money from the year we were married and I paid it off in full, bc I cannot wait to figure out half payments from my ex.

I had to use money I had saved for closing costs to do so.

I need to secure this to be able to close this week. It’s insane I get it, a last resort, a Hail Mary, whatever you want to call it but real and it’s my life and just doing the best I can for my kids.

xo jess