My entire life I considered myself very lucky to have the honor to be raised by both my grandparents and my mother. My grandmother taught me strength, perseverance, and was always my protector. My grandfather taught me to never give up, the value of hard work, and he always kept us in good spirits with his silly attitude and mindset. My mother taught me undying love, empathy, and morphed me into the mother I am today. Without the three of them I would be nothing, and now they are all gone. I am entirely lost without them. On May 26th, 2025, my last living person who raised me, my grandmother Sharon Ray Riley suffered a cardiac arrest. They were able to do CPR and bring her back (Did I mention this woman was the strongest woman in the world? Survived multiple strokes, triple bypass, and then cardiac arrest. She will always be a superwoman in my eyes.) However, she was reliant on machines to keep her alive. We had a couple glimmers of hope that she might make a slight recovery and then took a turn for the worse and her kidneys started suffering and failed. Basically, every organ was relying on a machine to stay functional. I had to make the painful decision that I will suffer with my whole life, which was taking her off of life support. That is what she wanted. My grandmother was a person who had a lot of dignity, she hated relying on others.

With that being said, I'm trying to raise money because not only has this left me with more immense emotional pain and trauma (I do NOT handle grief well and have already been seeing a doctor trying to come to terms with my mother. Mind you, it's been almost 7 years since she's been gone and nothing feels any better.) It's also left me with a huge financial burden. I need to be able to afford my grandmother's ashes, I would love to purchase her a sky-blue urn I already have chosen. Blue was her favorite color, and she was my world so i feel it's fitting. There is nothing more important to me than honoring the home I was left with, however it also comes with a mortgage that my grandmother was paying while I paid all the utilities, for food, car, extra bills etc. But now I am left with an additional 900$ to pay monthly on one income, also medical bills for my grandmother some in which I am being left responsible with. This emotional pain is making it extremely difficult for me to focus on work, but I am doing my best while at the same time homeschooling my daughter.

My grandparents worked hard their whole lives but sadly in 2015 lost most of everything they worked so hard their whole lives to build. It would mean so much to me to set up a memorial in my home with all my families ashes. Since they aren't psychically here for me to see, and they never will be again. And that pain is very strong. It would also mean a lot to me to maintain this household they left me with, in honor of them. I need to honor my family; I do not want them to be forgotten.

I appreciate anyone who even read this and love to you all. xx