I'm 36 years old and currently in recovery after years of struggling with addiction. For a long time, I was in and out of rehab and treatment centers, trying to pull my life together. During that time, I wasn't able to be the father my 5-year-old daughter deserved, and I missed out on so many important moments. Now, for the first time in my life, I feel mentally and spiritually strong, and I'm determined not to look back. I'm living in a supportive fellowship that's close to my daughter and her mother. It's a unhealthy relationship I have with her mother,very toxic, it's healthier for me to keep distance until I get on my feet and have a place and a vehicle of my own to where I don't need to be around her mom to spend time with my daughter.

My daughter is growing up so fast, and it makes me sick to think about the time I've already lost. I don't want to waste another moment. The holidays have just passed, and I feel the urgency to be there for her now more than ever. Not being able to pick her up or spend time with her is affecting both of us. Recently, I met her and her mother at a pumpkin patch, and seeing how happy and proud she was saying to her mothers friends this is my daddy and showing me of in a way.both heartwarming and heartbreaking. I want to be there for her, to make memories, and spend time with her.al show her that I'm here and I love her . being around her mother with her me and her mother always argue and she picks up on her mom being upset.i don't want her to experience that at all in any way.

A friend of mine, who has a similar background, wants to help me by selling me his truck. I'm starting a new job ,I am a electrician, and having a vehicle would make all the difference in my life and in hers right now. I'm an honest, hardworking person when I'm on track and im trying to do better, I am doing better and I truly believe God has a plan for me. If anyone could help me with this, it would mean the world to me and my daughter. I'm deeply grateful for any support as I work to rebuild my life, to be the father that little girl deserves.it feels wrong for me to ask anyone for help but I really need it right now in my life.thank you for taking the time to read this.