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Hello folks. Humbly and with great apprehension, I need to ask for help to make it through the winter.
Since asking for assistance at the top of October, I have accomplished a lot to shore up my life these past six weeks. I have cleared and closed the storage unit from my Summer move, and done a lot of heavy lifting- actual and metaphorical. I've done the work of sorting through my anxieties about which bills to pay and which to ask for extensions on, made great strides to cut luxury services out of my life, become functionally 'straight-edge' for health and budget factors, and tightened my food and discretionary spending from where it was eight weeks ago, to the most simple bean, potato, and pasta basics I can manage. I have done a lot of reflecting and gratitude work on the steps that brought me here, so that I may never fall into these traps so deeply again.
I have applied for jobs and conducted phone screens that have led to solid feedback & insight, but have not led to employment. I have torn my resume down completely and built it back up from scratch, stepped up my game on cover-letter writing, and found ways to showcase my esoteric technical skills in documented writing example. I have been looking towards the future with respect to both my ideal career move, and the strategy of finding any job, part-time or otherwise, for bill-paying income again- without making myself so busy that all this falls apart. This week I have another phone screen for a very promising career job interview, but I cannot bank on the potential of that alone.
I still struggle daily, with impulsivity and planning. I struggle with my ADHD condition, with overdraft fees and unexpected charges. After catching a clerical error by the rental office, paying October's late rent, and November's rent on-time ... over half the money from my Fall fundraiser was already spent. I must talk with the rental office by the end of this week about the very real possibility of paying December's rent late, and start looking to hard decisions about the first quarter of 2022. I've started selling material possessions that I would normally donate to charity, and if I could begin to bring in income by creating and selling art or some other freelance work then I also aim to do so.
I don't feel the blind and hopeless despair I did in September, but I cannot let the days click by without also pushing myself for accelerated action. I feel prepared and closer to getting my career back onto its rails. I believe I can begin to bring income in, before the end of the year. Despite that preparation and confidence, I am still in a very bad place.
I have been emotionally floored by the people who have previously given, ten dollars or hundreds. People I didn't know were paying attention and have completely reset my ideas of gratitude and charity. I want to thank everyone for the love and support I have received so far, I don't know where I would be without it. Well. I do know, and I am fighting to avoid becoming houseless, in every way that I can. I cannot fight this alone, and I am lifted up only by the strength of my community. Words are not enough.
Thank you again, for your consideration and your empathy.
Fit Price ✨
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