Update: 
Initially this GoFundMe was to get my mother over for a visit. The situation has changed a lot since then. 

I’m absolutely devastated and tired of trying to be strong. I’m tired of not being able to tell my story because of fear of being judged. 

I have a mother in South Africa who is going hungry because she can’t get a job. She’s too old, too fair and too qualified. She’s heard every excuse. 

Family have accused her of not looking hard enough for jobs when even I apply for jobs for her. I have other people applying for jobs for her. 

Every now and then she manages to get to an interview and then she’s told some excuse as to why she won’t get the job. 

She was told by family to move down to Pretoria because they would help her then after selling all her possessions to make the move possible she’s now being accused of stealing from them. 

I can’t afford to bring her over and I send money over whenever I can afford it. 

I’m at a loss. 

My mother tells me once a week that she wants to end her life because no one cares about her. It breaks my heart to see this woman who was once so strong- who carried me on her shoulders to make sure I could have a good life, go through this.

I’m not someone who usually airs my dirty laundry on Facebook. In fact I hate when it’s done but I don’t know what to do anymore. 

The silence is killing me.

One day when my mother commits suicide I want people to know why and I definitely don’t want everyone to suddenly act like it’s such a shame when people are just turning their backs. 

Sorry but I am not sorry. 

She’s probably going to get kicked out and be homeless after my family read this.

My grandmother is probably going to cop an earful too. 

But when does it end?

When my mother ends her life?

Thank you for taking the time to read this and for every cent you can afford to help carry my burden. 

EDIT:
There have ave been so many amazing people help in so many ways since I’ve opened up about this. I just can’t thank you all enough ❤️