I hate that I am where I am in life. I truly do. If for some reason the ones who is talking in the back,

“Oh they could’ve, should’ve, would’ve.”

Think I am just here to keep “freeloading and just looking for an “easy” way out, well the 60 lbs I lost from February to July, mostly due to the food needed for both kids cause they are growing. They would eat breakfast, lunch and several snacks while we went without. Or how about you get caught shoplifting your kids hygiene needs and birthday gifts. Imagine the shame in that , then tell me that I am “Just doing this for a hand out “

Na, the weather just hasn’t stopped pouring the rain down on us. We will remain strong.

My name is Austin, My wife Cierra and I have been married 16 years. We have two incredible children, Peyton (14) and our son Ja’Cory Tritan(8)

Around a year ago work ran out and I had began battling severe depression. At the time I was in therapy and learning about “Reflection” and beginning to finally deal with the loss of both of my parents, Father passed in 2020, mom passed in 2015. I know, sounds crazy to think someone under 34 had to have grieved in between, truth is, I never did. I stayed busy busting my hind end, building us a home. Providing.

I shut down. Completely numb, darkness had taken ahold of me, my mind was making me feel so ashamed, hopeless, weak, and to be completely blunt.. I didn’t want to live any more knowing I could not be the man this family needed me to be. My wife saw to it that the man she married was better than that. Promised I’d find my way and she would hold the fort down so long as I promised to try to find a little bit of the Lord each and every day.

Back in February she was part of a mass layoff at her company. And there we were, left with a little nest egg, and unemployment benefits for her.

We have hid this from everyone. And now we aren’t even head above water. We haven’t made a house payment since I don’t know when. Our bills are piling to the ceiling,

We have both applied for jobs, to the extent of each of us staying up all night just applying left and right. One of my childhood best friends practically gave me a job, truth is I let him down.

I don’t know when God will hit me with the sign I need to just get this right, but I appreciate any and every bit of help that we can get. God Bless.

-Austin Young