I honestly don’t want to be writing this. Nor do I want to be asking for help at all. But that is apparently a huge part of my problem. Ever since Jes became seriously ill and unable to work, I have felt like I have to fix and tend to our situation essentially by myself. The pain and anguish of seeing my beloved wife & best friend suffer for a decade through a collection of illnesses and debilitating symptoms that have no cure has pushed me into a state of perpetual crisis mode. Whether the stress is financial, emotional, physical or spiritual, I feel engulfed in a constant state of grief, pressure and urgency. Then the covid hit.

Like most artists I know, the pandemic really threw me off and essentially annihilated my business. Though it’s been almost 5 years, I’m still trying to get it together financially. I just want to take care of my wife and get our lives back on track, but I’ve recently realized that I’ve been suffering from a severe mental illness which often cripples me with depression. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and have begun taking new medicines to try and treat it. I’m also in EMDR therapy and have been for a few years.

I’m not lazy. I’m no freeloader. I think anyone who truly knows me, knows that I can hustle with the best of them. But for the past several years, I feel like I’m constantly working and making an effort to improve my mental health, our finances, our living situation, etc. but I seem to only wind up digging myself further into the ground. In spite of my efforts, this depression frequently causes me to think that there’s no use in trying anymore and that the day I die will be the greatest day of my life. It’s sucking the life out of me and I don’t want it to.

Despite my constant efforts to find work and create multiple revenue streams, bills have piled up and we are in need of some help.

We’re asking for donations, BUT I’d really love to find work. So if you know of anyone looking for someone like me, please feel free to tell them you know someone like me.

Thank you for reading this and we appreciate your time.

*no sweepstakes, giveaways, or returns on investment are offered in exchange for any donations made to this GoFundMe. Thank you!