I'm a single mom raising 3 kids, all with varying disabilities. Within the past two months, I discovered that my middle son, who has Down Syndrome, has recently developed a heart condition called Pulmonary Hypertension. He's scheduled to get a Cardio-Cath done to find out how severe his heart condition is and how best to help him. But we have to have a special anesthesiologist because he has very high blood pressure in his lungs, and it's difficult for him to breathe. He gets tired and sick very easily and quickly. I'm so worried for him.

To add to my emotional stress, I lost my dad to cancer this past spring, so these upcoming holidays will be difficult without him.

I'm struggling to make ends meet. I've had my power shut off more times than I'd care to admit... the longest time was 3 days until I had enough to pay the past due amount. I've canceled all the extra things that my kids used to enjoy: Disney+, Crunchyroll, Hulu, because I can't afford them. I'm about to lose the internet, but... oh well. There's nothing I can do about that when I can't pay it.

But I also have rent, the car loan, and credit agencies that are court-ordered payments that can't be missed, or I go to jail. Which I can't. I can't lose my kids. Right now, with everything weighing me down, they're the only thing holding me together and keeping me going. Every day is a struggle. I fight myself just to get out of bed and get dressed; some days, it's a struggle to act happy. But I do it for them. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't care anymore.

So, I'm struggling. I hate admitting that I can't do it. That I need help. I hate asking for help... but I don't know what else to do. I've never done a GoFundMe before. But I don't know how I'm going to pay for bills, hospital visits, Dr's appointments, hotel rooms (Primary Children's Hospital is not near where I live), let alone put food on my table or get Christmas gifts this year. Oh, and my teenage daughter decided to adopt a stray kitten, so now I have that extra expense as well...

As they say, "When it rains, it pours."

Any little bit will help. Please.