I see so many amazing YouTube, FaceBook, Instagram feeds where a philanthropist changes the life of someone, for great reasons and it brings a tear to my eye. My son lives in Amsterdam with his mother. He just turned 11 last month. I dream of getting back there to be with him. I am in Saint Louis. Born and raised in Chicago. I can't get there by myself. I have a lot of blessings along my journey in life, and I have never asked anyone for a handout but I regret not being able to be with my son more. I travel to Europe 2-3 times a year and have my son for alternating holidays and a few weeks in the summer but for me, and him, it is not enough. I dream of the day I might hit it big, win that lottery (even though I don't play) or find someone who has more than they need and feels for my plight. But, the reality is, realistically that is a slim, slim chance of ever materializing and I want to be with my son before he is in high school. He needs his father to be with him. He deserves that. When I divorced, I made a conscious decision to allow my European ex-wife to remain in Holland because I felt our son deserved to write his own story. He is trilingual and as a father I could not be prouder, and he has more exposure living his best life in Europe than he would have in Chicago or Saint Louis. I wish there were a way I could afford to be with him full time. I actively look for avenues that will allow me to get my foot in the door so I might stay in Amsterdam as a resident of Holland, but the reality is without a financial starting point my life will always be that of a long distance dad and I want so much more for myself, and my son's well being. We FaceTime daily. I spend my waking moments thinking about him and what he is doing. We are 4,000 miles 8 hours (by plane) and 7 hours apart by time. I wish for more. I pray for more. I hope for more to be a better part of his life and to feel like a real father and not just a traveling dad. Everyone that knows me tells me I am a great dad, and yet I do not feel great. I feel like I am barely making it even though I wear a great face and do the best I can do. I know if I had a financial backing to start the process that I would be successful. I just need that push. I need people who believe in the bond between father and son, those who believe in the power of love and those who believe that dreamers dream and if you can visualize, you can realize. I believe in the human spirit and hope that there are good people in the world who want nothing more than people to live their best life for the ones they love. I am asking for your support to help a father be with his son and give him all of the love in the world. Bless you for learning my story and for sharing your love.