hello, i am a 17 year old arab bi enby living in a 3rd world country, india, with my family. my household was once extremely abusive both physically and emotionally, but now that we're in this country we're desperate to get out. both my parents have recognized their mistake in bringing their children here, now its just a depressive and melancholic environment. meaning neglect and passive aggressiveness. i could say the abuse/fights have died down but the repression and control is still there. as ive said, im just glad they have recognized their mistake and agreed with my decision of asking for help online.

we moved here from uae in 2015 because of reasons im uncomfortable with stating, but we are trapped in an unfamiliar country with no way out. we lack the money and means for traveling. we were hoping 2020 would reveal some opportunities but the epidemic has completely destroyed that, and i have to wait till (im guessing) june 2021 for the worlds economy to assemble back into place.

we dont have any aunts, uncles or cousins here to help us, so we're isolated with no help or communication from the outside world.

i originally studied in uae but was forced to leave out of legal matters, it got in the way of my education at a very young age. i was hoping i could continue my education here but we've been trying that for almost 5 years now with no result. homeschooling got expensive and so did tuition.

our only source of income is my dad, who is in his 50s and growing tired from working all the time. if youre wondering why none of my siblings have jobs its because we dont have the necessary education to get one. my education was put on hold because how big the price was. we want to start education again once we're stable in a safer country but the possibility of that is becoming thin. even more so because of the epidemic

we only have enough money to buy groceries/pay bills and thats it.  all of the money we're trying to save is barely enough to move an entire family of 6, especially when youre living in a country where the economy is in shambles.

its going to take years to save up enough money (thats in usd) to move, which involves buying plane tickets, buying a house and moving our stuff into a different country. we've decided on canada but the required amount to do that is $150,000. thinking about how much of my youthful years are going to waste on financial struggles makes me beyond depressed and suicidal. ive had to sacrifice my education because of this.

please help me get my family out of this desperate situation. i cant lose hope about my future. my sisters are severely depressed with no therapy or friends to help them, all undiagnosed with no medication, including me. i fear they might hurt themselves because they frequently show suicidal behavior because of their trapped environment and years of abuse. i dont think i can live like this anymore. i just want control over my life again, studying and doing whatever i was denied to do since childhood. i feel like im trapped and i cant breathe (even in my previous home) and it severely affected my mental health. i should not be mature as i am for my age and i find myself mourning my innocence. anything helps. everything will go to our savings and ill be forever grateful for it.

i know asking for 150k is way too much from the internet especially since i am just one person with a dysfunctional family, i know theres people out there experiencing way worse living situations than me, but i have patience. literally anything does help, and im positive a nice amount will be collected in a span of 9 months if i could at least get a 100 per person, i would be so grateful. i cannot thank you enough if youve read this far and i appreciate every donation given, even if you just spread it around. this gave me a new hope i havent felt since 2015. thank you so much again.