Finley June Hibdon.. too beautiful for earth
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Most people spend the last few weeks of pregnancy worrying about how many outfits to have washed and ready, are there enough clean bottles sterilized, am I drinking enough water, is my hospital bag packed, am I ready for labor? No one ever prepares for the thought of being so close to delivery yet never getting to hear your baby cry or never get to do something so simple as take the baby you made and carried for 9 months home.
This story unfortunately does not have a happy ending. (We appreciate you taking the time to read their long story in advance)
After trying for years to conceive on their own after several surgeries and procedures each, Tiffany and Adam embarked on their only available option left, IVF. The 9 months that followed included more procedures, hundreds of shots, blood draws and tons of ultrasounds. After their first round of IVF they only had 3 fertilized embryos and on day 5 where they are considered big enough to keep growing they were left with only 1. They were so scared knowing the odds of that embryo being genetically tested and being strong and healthy was not super great but they prayed their little egg would be strong. The 2 weeks of waiting were unbearable but they eventually got the news that their little egg was perfect and they could start the process to implant it. More deep injections started along with more medications to get Tiffanys body ready to receive their miracle baby and by the grace of God everything implanted perfectly and they were pregnant! They couldn’t believe it, it seemed too good to be true that everything would go so well and look so perfect from day 1. They were so excited and although they were scared of stories of early miscarriage they felt like their baby was finally on its way and they told their family. Their teenage daughter Lilah was maybe the most excited, she loved to talk about how she would take care of her “Gummy Bear” and sleep with her and basically be the 3rd person to ever hold her no ifs ands or buts. She was already such a great big sister. The daily deep injections continued for many weeks, almost everyone in our family got to give Tiffany an injection and infuse their love into her womb where their sweet baby was growing so strongly. We soon found out that this little egg that could was a girl, everything they ever wanted. Again even though it felt so early to announce there was no fear, only a faith and trust that everything was going to be okay. Years and years ago they stumbled on the name Finley, it was like there was no other name in the world and they held tight onto it for years for strength and just knew she would find her way into their hearts and home. Finley existed long before they were ever pregnant. The rest of the pregnancy was pretty textbook, Finley passed every milestone and was never anything less than perfect. Before starting IVF Tiffany had just switched from being an ER nurse to working in Labor and Delivery. It was such a change but gave her hope seeing all the beautiful babies and mothers getting to meet each other for the first time. It never made her sad, it was so hopeful she knew their day would come soon. Delivering babies while feeling her baby kick inside her was something so special she couldn’t believe it was finally their turn to take home their sweet sweet girl after all this time.
But unfortunately on April 27th Tiffany and Adam were faced with the most painfully excruciating news of their life. Being almost 38 weeks things were getting pretty snug in there and after waking up and spending some time in Finleys nursery drinking her morning coffee Tiffany noticed Finn wasn’t really moving like usual, nurse mode kicked in and she just thought maybe theres less room now and she’s sleeping, don’t be silly. She spent sometime working on a design for a cup to make that had lovely wildflowers and would say “Finleys Mama” the entire time she was rubbing her sweet girl trying to see why she might be so sleepy. So she did all the usual things she would tell her patients, she drank cold water, had a snack and went upstairs to lay down and really focus on feeling her kick. After sometime with no luck she got out her home doppler she hadn’t used in months and after what felt like an eternity anxiously called for Adam to help find her baby girl since she was already fearing the worst. He was able to find a heart rate but they still weren’t convinced and Adam easily convinced her to go to the hospital. She thought its just like all the patients who go get checked out to find everything was fine and they would be home in no time, don’t freak out yet. The entire drive to the hospital Tiffany tried to remain calm for Adam but kept thinking to herself this feels like the start of the worst day of our lives. After being taken to triage alone and made to go through the motions while inside she kept screaming to herself why can’t you see I’m crying, wont you just put me on the monitor why is this taking so long?! The nurses tried for a few minutes and Tiffany just covered her eyes and prayed, they wouldn’t let Adam be with her until she was admitted. When they said they were going to get the doctor with an ultrasound she just knew. She placed the probe on her giant belly and said “I’m sorry theres no heartbeat.” It was exactly like a movie. Thankfully a nurse had the compassion to go run and get Adam who had to walk in just seconds after the doctor told Tiffany to find her screaming and utterly distraught. It was the most traumatic and tragic experience from both sides for both of them. The next 33 hours they spent inducing Tiffany, even after everything they still had to face the labor and delivery of their baby girl. They were both surrounded by family and so much love during the saddest time of their lives. Tiffany being Tiffany had spent 1000s of hours planning the birth of their baby knowing how it may be the only time she is ever pregnant and gets to bring their one and only miracle into the world. While there were many interventions she had but never wanted, most of her labor was peaceful, calm and completely supported by her husband who was the best doula and birth partner she could have ever asked for. At 00:21am on April 28th their sweet baby girl Finley June Hibdon was born and went straight to her mothers arms. She was beautiful and perfect in every way. She was a daughter, a sister, a granddaughter, niece, cousin and friend to so many. From her perfect toes all the way to her button nose and sweet rosey lips. She looked like sleeping beauty she was so perfect. Having to say goodbye to her and leave her body at the hospital and go home to her empty and beautiful nursery is something no parent should ever have to experience.
As her village and family we are asking for any help in donating to their sweet family. This will help with any hospital expenses, funeral expenses, and anything else to help them stay on their feet as they take the time they need off of work to grieve and take care of theirselves and their older children. Being both in the medical field for many years and now being a labor and delivery nurse its going to be extremely hard for Tiffany to return to work after literally experiencing what they would consider the absolute worst case scenario for any expecting mother let alone a nurse to have to navigate the delicate care of a family going through this. Your support may also help them decide if pursuing more IVF treatments is even an option for them in their future.
Thank you so much in advance for any support, love and prayers for our family during this unimaginable pain and devastating loss. Finley June may not have lived a long life but her life was only filled with love from so many of you and at a time like this it is comforting knowing that the only thing she ever knew in this world was love. She will watch over us all and continue to bring love and healing to our family forever.
Thank you❤️
This story unfortunately does not have a happy ending. (We appreciate you taking the time to read their long story in advance)
After trying for years to conceive on their own after several surgeries and procedures each, Tiffany and Adam embarked on their only available option left, IVF. The 9 months that followed included more procedures, hundreds of shots, blood draws and tons of ultrasounds. After their first round of IVF they only had 3 fertilized embryos and on day 5 where they are considered big enough to keep growing they were left with only 1. They were so scared knowing the odds of that embryo being genetically tested and being strong and healthy was not super great but they prayed their little egg would be strong. The 2 weeks of waiting were unbearable but they eventually got the news that their little egg was perfect and they could start the process to implant it. More deep injections started along with more medications to get Tiffanys body ready to receive their miracle baby and by the grace of God everything implanted perfectly and they were pregnant! They couldn’t believe it, it seemed too good to be true that everything would go so well and look so perfect from day 1. They were so excited and although they were scared of stories of early miscarriage they felt like their baby was finally on its way and they told their family. Their teenage daughter Lilah was maybe the most excited, she loved to talk about how she would take care of her “Gummy Bear” and sleep with her and basically be the 3rd person to ever hold her no ifs ands or buts. She was already such a great big sister. The daily deep injections continued for many weeks, almost everyone in our family got to give Tiffany an injection and infuse their love into her womb where their sweet baby was growing so strongly. We soon found out that this little egg that could was a girl, everything they ever wanted. Again even though it felt so early to announce there was no fear, only a faith and trust that everything was going to be okay. Years and years ago they stumbled on the name Finley, it was like there was no other name in the world and they held tight onto it for years for strength and just knew she would find her way into their hearts and home. Finley existed long before they were ever pregnant. The rest of the pregnancy was pretty textbook, Finley passed every milestone and was never anything less than perfect. Before starting IVF Tiffany had just switched from being an ER nurse to working in Labor and Delivery. It was such a change but gave her hope seeing all the beautiful babies and mothers getting to meet each other for the first time. It never made her sad, it was so hopeful she knew their day would come soon. Delivering babies while feeling her baby kick inside her was something so special she couldn’t believe it was finally their turn to take home their sweet sweet girl after all this time.
But unfortunately on April 27th Tiffany and Adam were faced with the most painfully excruciating news of their life. Being almost 38 weeks things were getting pretty snug in there and after waking up and spending some time in Finleys nursery drinking her morning coffee Tiffany noticed Finn wasn’t really moving like usual, nurse mode kicked in and she just thought maybe theres less room now and she’s sleeping, don’t be silly. She spent sometime working on a design for a cup to make that had lovely wildflowers and would say “Finleys Mama” the entire time she was rubbing her sweet girl trying to see why she might be so sleepy. So she did all the usual things she would tell her patients, she drank cold water, had a snack and went upstairs to lay down and really focus on feeling her kick. After sometime with no luck she got out her home doppler she hadn’t used in months and after what felt like an eternity anxiously called for Adam to help find her baby girl since she was already fearing the worst. He was able to find a heart rate but they still weren’t convinced and Adam easily convinced her to go to the hospital. She thought its just like all the patients who go get checked out to find everything was fine and they would be home in no time, don’t freak out yet. The entire drive to the hospital Tiffany tried to remain calm for Adam but kept thinking to herself this feels like the start of the worst day of our lives. After being taken to triage alone and made to go through the motions while inside she kept screaming to herself why can’t you see I’m crying, wont you just put me on the monitor why is this taking so long?! The nurses tried for a few minutes and Tiffany just covered her eyes and prayed, they wouldn’t let Adam be with her until she was admitted. When they said they were going to get the doctor with an ultrasound she just knew. She placed the probe on her giant belly and said “I’m sorry theres no heartbeat.” It was exactly like a movie. Thankfully a nurse had the compassion to go run and get Adam who had to walk in just seconds after the doctor told Tiffany to find her screaming and utterly distraught. It was the most traumatic and tragic experience from both sides for both of them. The next 33 hours they spent inducing Tiffany, even after everything they still had to face the labor and delivery of their baby girl. They were both surrounded by family and so much love during the saddest time of their lives. Tiffany being Tiffany had spent 1000s of hours planning the birth of their baby knowing how it may be the only time she is ever pregnant and gets to bring their one and only miracle into the world. While there were many interventions she had but never wanted, most of her labor was peaceful, calm and completely supported by her husband who was the best doula and birth partner she could have ever asked for. At 00:21am on April 28th their sweet baby girl Finley June Hibdon was born and went straight to her mothers arms. She was beautiful and perfect in every way. She was a daughter, a sister, a granddaughter, niece, cousin and friend to so many. From her perfect toes all the way to her button nose and sweet rosey lips. She looked like sleeping beauty she was so perfect. Having to say goodbye to her and leave her body at the hospital and go home to her empty and beautiful nursery is something no parent should ever have to experience.
As her village and family we are asking for any help in donating to their sweet family. This will help with any hospital expenses, funeral expenses, and anything else to help them stay on their feet as they take the time they need off of work to grieve and take care of theirselves and their older children. Being both in the medical field for many years and now being a labor and delivery nurse its going to be extremely hard for Tiffany to return to work after literally experiencing what they would consider the absolute worst case scenario for any expecting mother let alone a nurse to have to navigate the delicate care of a family going through this. Your support may also help them decide if pursuing more IVF treatments is even an option for them in their future.
Thank you so much in advance for any support, love and prayers for our family during this unimaginable pain and devastating loss. Finley June may not have lived a long life but her life was only filled with love from so many of you and at a time like this it is comforting knowing that the only thing she ever knew in this world was love. She will watch over us all and continue to bring love and healing to our family forever.
Thank you❤️
Co-organizers (2)
Stephanie Hoskins
Organizer
Stockton, CA
Tiffany Hibdon
Beneficiary
Kristie Marion
Co-organizer