This account is being set up for Olivia Mason Zayden and all four of their other babies. The mental load of all of this is so much and so exhausting. I came in to have my contractions stopped 17 days ago. I was sent home still contracting. I came back the next day to be admitted to the antepartum floor. 2 days after coming in the first time I was still contracting which resulted in my water breaking. They wanted to keep my baby in till 34 weeks per protocol. I got a bad uterin infection with 48 hours of my water being broken and after 10 hours of the worst labor of my life my seeet boy was born limp, blue, and unresponsive due to how much stress he was in, in my infected uterus. Just 2 days after my crash c section I started having symptoms of an infection but everyone kept saying maybe I was having an allergic reaction. After 7 days on antibiotics my c section incision got a tiny little hole that started having pus just pour out. It did that for 3 days before they decided I needed a second surgery to clean the infection out. They had to stop surgery because my Fascia was grey, necrotic and shredding so now I have a hole in my fascia that will need surgery to fix. Today I am sitting still in the hospital 17 days later with my stomach open from hip to hip about 8inches wide by 2.5 inches tall. You can see inside my body cavity. I have to go home like this. This is not fair. I just wanted to make sure my son was okay and I got MRSA from my c section. MRSA ate my insides. Now I have to live with this. My mental state is not good and I wish things had been different. I Wanna go home to my kids but I still have things to do at the hospital. They’re going to be placing a wound vac today and I will have to come back to Galveston every 3 days to have it changed. Hopefully this wound heals correctly, I wanna be back to normal. If anyone knows of any good therapists please let me know. I’m going to need all the help I can to get over this, I’ve already been started on antidepressants.

With the long hospital stay and baby Zayden being admitted into pediatric icu yesterday and Olivia still in the hospital they are unable to work and pay their bills and Mason's meals. She will need to be brought to Galveston every three days for the wound vac to be changed. Their car engine blew up about a month ago also. Please keep them all lifted in prayer! Healing to both from head to toe. She has now been in the hospital 18 days. Our babies need all the help they can get storm the heavens.