Hello, I am a father of 4 beautiful kids. On April 24, 2016, 3 weeks after my wife and I had our 4th child my wife suddenly & with no warning passed away from a horrible desease called Spontaneous Coranary Artery Disection. Like many people I had never heard of such an illness. It mostly happens in women over 30 either postpartum or 3rd trimester. I am going to go into detail about that horrible night and the nightmare life's been since. First let me tell you about my wife and our life together. We were together 7 years. After just 5 months of dating she got pregnant with my Son, Ajaxx. We had another Son, Archer 2 years later. Our Daughters, Lola & Lucy were born 2 & 4 years later exactly. They share the same birthday. We were very happy with the family we built & proud of our beautiful children. My wife was in good shape, only weighing about 120lbs, and had no issues with her pregnancies. She was ready to go back to work 2 later after all of them. We had brought Lucy home about 3 weeks prior and life was good. She died on a Sunday and was supposed to return to work that Monday morning. The day before, Saturday, we had a garage sale & the kids sold lemonade. It was a great family day. Sunday night around 8pm she & the kids were watching television in the living room as I was bbqing outside and making french fries (a special request she had made) on the stove. I hear her be really short with our 2 year old Daughter. She asked me to put her in her room with the baby gate up. After I did that I came back into the living room & she asked me to rub her back. She got on the couch on all fours and my 6 year old Son & I rubbed her back. I couldn't see her face but we talked the whole time . Her voice never changed. She said she wasn't in pain but felt weird. I asked if she wanted me to take her to the hospital but she said no. She said it felt like pressure on her lungs so I took off her sports bra. We kept rubbing her back for a long time. The whole time she sounded normal, we even were flirting with each other. After awhile she said "ok, I feel a little better, go get the food". I got up & headed for the kitchen. She was on the couch still in the same position. I got about 10 feet when I heard BOOM! Ajaxx yelled Mommy! I ran into the room and she was on the floor. All 4 kids are in the room watching. I grabbed her , tried to pick her up but she was dead weight. Her eyes rolled back in her head. I screamed "I'M CALLING 911!" into her face. Ajaxx had been playing games on her phone and was standing above us. I grabbed the phone dialed and 911. The operator said to do cpr. I had been in the Kansas National Guard for 5 years and know how to do it. 5 minutes pass, I'm still doing cpr, I hear the sirens but they just drive by. I ask the operator where they were going. He tells me to calm down, they are on the way. Another 4 mins goes by before the get there. They sit outside for 2 minutes despite Ajaxx and me screaming and waving "OVER HERE". It was the only time I stopped cpr. The cops come in 1st and see her on the floor without a shirt and immediately push me in back room. They assume I did this to her. As I get pushed the last thing I see is the fireman getting ready to use the paddles on her. They rush her to the hospital but detain me at my house for 20 mins still thinking I did something to her. Finally they let me go to the hospital. Nobody tells me what's going on. I am expecting to see her in a hospital bed getting treatment but to be fine. I thought I had done enough, fast enough to have saved her. I walk to a room where all her family are. They don't know what happened & assume I did something to her as well. Not 2 minutes later a doctor walks in to the room and tells us she's passed. I am in shock. They ask if I want to say my goodbyes. Of course I did so I walk into a hospital room and she's on a bed, blood around her mouth. Hospital workers line the walls of the room watching. I finally go home to my kids but I don't tell them. The autopsy comes back that morning clearing me of any wrong doing which sets her family's minds a little more at ease. I almost can't believe they thought I would ever hurt her. Needless to say it's been hard to take care if 4 kids under 7 years old while being totally devastated with grief. They set up a donation fund at the funeral but her parents kept all of it, never even telling me how much it was. They also had life insurance on her for who knows how much. I got none of this $. Between a few 3 benefits friends and coworkers threw I got $2600 total. I had to take almost 5 months off work trying to recover so $ was super short. Unfortunately we were already behind on so many bills that all the money was gone immediately. We managed to make it to tax time believing a big return would right the ship. But because I took so much time off I didn't have enough income to get any tax credits. I got $3600 back for 4 kid's. Eventually we got so far behind on rent we were evicted. All the bills are over due & I work for a school so I am laid off all summer. At the moment I am living in my mini van because I don't have enough for 1st months & last months rent. Plus to pay off the utilities. It's gonna be around $2000 to get a place and just don't have it. I am scared I'm going to lose my children if I don't get some help soon. I'll have the monthly income once get in somewhere but need help getting in a place. I love my kids and they have suffered so much. Now they feel like they lost their Mother, their Father, their home. I feel like I have lost my best friend, my companion, my world. If I lose the last bit of her in these kids I will have literally lost everything. Please help us remain a family.