I am 38 Years Old and I am living in a home with Family Members that I do not feel financially stable with or safe with any longer. I have dealt with EXTREME verbal and at times Physical issues and abüsë and have been psychologically manipulated for a LONG Time that if I leave or move out I won't be able to make it.

I don't want to keep living this way. I love my family but enough is enough and I cannot stand my Mothers alcoholism daily.

I want to get the funds to work towards getting my driver's license, a used car and a stable start for myself to leave and take my small dogs and my Best Friend with me. My Best Friend lives with me and is treated no differently.

I want us to be able to get on our own two feet away from them.

We are not in ANY immediate danger with where we are besides the fact that the "norm" her re remains the same. Such as, last night after I was verbally and physically gone at for saying that I do want to leave, While I was left in tears and feeling broken, everyone went about going to bed or playing video games together as though this was okay.

This is a daily occurrence and I am tired of Verbal, Mental, Emotional, Spiritual, Physical and Monetary attacks as I am also trying to help them in emergencies with any costs I can. I CANNOT keep doing that for them and keep also living day to day for myself while eduring such settings and atmospheres with others.

I have explained to my Family that I WANT to leave and they have agreed that I have my rights and cannot be stopped.

They also do Not believe I am fully serious (due to having stayed after this living situation for so long without leaving and staying with them) They alsk believe whole heartedly, I will not be able to pull off leaving / starting over on my own or doing anything without them.

This isn't about proving them wrong. This is about starting over for ME. Of course I am terrified. But I have to be willing to take the leap. I cannot and WILL not keep living this way.