Ducky needs Power and a working van for an MOT

Gulp This is a hard one to do and embarrassing, I need some help from my friends, financially.

I've been struggling a lot recently, mental health hasn't been to great, I'm overwhelmed with things I need to do like moving workshops, paying my bills, the vans mot is fast approaching, I don't have much work on at the moment... Been struggling to sleep and get up in the mornings. Life's been pretty pants I won't lie.

I need some help financially. I'll explain... My van, my home might look beautiful and all cosy, but the reality is it was thrown together using scraps of what I had available when I became homeless. I'm having some serious issues with power, I don't have enough basically. I've been getting by off of lead acid batteries but I appear to be getting up in the mornings to flat leisure batteries which means my diesel heaters failing to start, it's not nice waking up cold and with my mental health my diet hasn't been to great either, I think I'm at a 'low ebb' .

I've been putting a lot of effort into rewiring the van the last few weeks to get the electrical system a bit more suitable for my needs and I'm nearly there but now I'm at a point where I really need to upgrade my batteries and I think logically the nest thing for me to do is to go down the Lithium battery route. Lithium batteries cost an absolute fortune but they are a game changer when it comes to performance and reliability. I also need to upgrade the solar panels I've got to charge the batteries.

So basically I need to try and find about a Thousand pounds. I don't want to borrow against future work because I need to budget for the new workshop, I can't just go and get a normal job because child support will take most of the money from me and I need to allocate time to packing up all my stuff for the workshop move.

I am looking to sell my van next year, I've outgrown it and I'm starting to feel claustrophobic, I need a bigger van that I can have a shower in, I've spoken to a friend about maybe getting an American RV to live in next year and there's the possibility of doing a work exchange for another cool van. I'm making plans to upsize and be more comfortable. Because of the poor electrical setup in the van, what might look like a 30 grand campervan is probably only worth about 3 grand. It's really important to me to get Dually (my van) ready to sell for the maximum amount possible so that when my I get a bigger van I'll have the right amount of funds available to kit it out for my needs.

So please, my friends, I need your help to raise some funds to upgrade my battery and solar. I've given so much of my energy to other people in the last couple of years and in the process of doing so I've completely forgotten about my own needs and ended up in a pickle I'm not getting any younger and I'm starting to worry about my future and my future health and wellbeing. I'm doing all I can to manage life and finances a bit better, I've stopped going to parties and festivals, given up smoking weed, I'm only buying things I need, Budgeting better... I don't waste money on new clothes or anything but all my efforts just dont seem to he working right now. If I was able to work the hours I used to work at the workshop then this situation wouldn't of happened.

I can't wait for new year to come around where I'll have the new workshop and just keep my head down working hard

And a little more back story for anyone wondering how this has come to be... I'm an old soul, and empath who's given my entire life to the wrong people, I've been dealt a bad hand of cards. I've wasted years of my life on women who have lied, manipulated, and abused me both financially and physically. I have a daughter who I don't even know where she is, her mother destroyed me and was in a relationship with a thug fresh out of jail before she had the bottle to break it off with me. I went home one day to all her family and friends there to kick me out because she'd played the victim card and they believed her. I seem to be a target, easy pickings for horrible nasty Sociopathic people and I end up giving my everything to them and forgetting about me in the process. I became homeless after that relationship ended in 2020 during lockdown, the woman I was seeing turned my name sour within the car community where I had built up a really good reputation of fixing cars in, she slept with half of my friends, I had to have a DNA test on my daughter... Yet all I ever did was work hard to try and provide for her, my daughter and her kids whilst she sat there acting the victim and wouldn't even entertain getting a job. It was very Jeremy Kyle to be honest and I'm glad I managed to break free now. I'm stuck paying a silly amount of child support even though I don't see my daughter and her mum abused me, the child support agency are horrible nasty and won't listen to my cries. Nobody wants to hear the truth because they all think I'm just like the next guy which I'm not. I've made some bad decisions and done some bad things in my adolescent times and I've come so far from all of that... That's why I use the name Ducky, because I don't feel like 'Kris' anymore.

I'm a grafter, I like to keep busy, I don't have a girlfriend I'm petrified of women now. I can't rely on my family for support my mum's got her own stuff going on, my nans only got a pension and I get about 4 words a year out of my dad over Facebook messenger I really wish my life was different, good things are coming but they can't come quick enough. Roll on new year when I get the new workshop thanks to a really good friend who see's my worth who's building it for me right now... I can't wait for my life to not be all over the place and disorganised. I didn't ask for this, I didn't ask for those horrible women to treat me like they did and I didn't ask for the landlord of my current workshop to make it impossible for me to earn money. There's some really horrible people on this planet and I seem to be easy pickings for them

So yeah, I'd really appreciate help to get me back on my feet. I'm the kindest guy you'll ever meet and if you do happen to help me out them I promise to make it up to you somehow. I'm also available for work on cars and I build some incredible Campervans despite the dog eat dog competition and plethora of bad, nasty van builders scamming people yet still having a huge following. Please help me and please let me help you too!

Ducky

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