Ive listened to this song....over and over and over again, probably couldn't admit how many times, honestly. Even if by MercyMe has gotten me through a lot of this but it isnt just the band. Damn, when I think about how many ask me how I do it (years ago, weeks, yesterday...I just wasnt sure what part they meant. I still dont. , I'm not sure I really fully ever understood because i just have done it. This is not something I ever wanted to do or IMAGINED I'd really have to do. None of my life has been. Most that know me, know I struggle asking for help in any means; however, the time has come where I just do not know what to do or where to turn. I have had to quit my full time job to provide full time care because I cannot afford to hire any for my sister Amy.

For those that don't know the full story...this is gonna be an eye opener. It's gonna hit HARD. at least it did for me. Every time I turn around is a slap in the face. I get the strength to persevere because of Him. This can Only be for HIS glory alone and I understand that some don't believe or don't understand....but He is the only reason I still try and fight cause otherwise I do not get it. I do not know how or why I'm still here fighting.

Amy did not want me to tell anyone her diagnosis until she did. I respected that. Amy did not want anyone to worry or alter their lives for her....which I also respected. However, it's gotten to a point that Amy can no longer care for herself....so much so that I'm not sure I can. I know that if she would've stayed in PA, she may not be here today but everyday I wake...I'm afraid she still won't be here and I make her sleep beside me. (When she is actually here.)

Amy had been diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver and very badly needs a transplant. Even though she hasn't taken any medication or drank any alcohol, she still has to meet with a liver specialist to see if she even qualifies to make the list.

She has been in numerous hospitals, doctors offices, and facilities. We traveled to PA in the very beginning of May and well that may be her last trip they say. The DR'S have said a lot but thought ALL of this....through all my life, I still try and remain positive.

My sister is really all I got left...

Amy is 32 and needs a liver transplant. She is to the point she cannot use the bathroom on her own, go to bed on her own, the bathroom...anything. I had to quit my job to care for her. I've had to move to a 1 bedroom that is handicap accessible and more expensive....for her and don't have a job. I've had to live a lot on faith and I hope that it saves her.

All my life I've told my self I keep fighting cause God is gonna use me...I'm a testimony. This is part of that. Please, please if you can...help me save my sister. I dont mind if it's a positive thought, a prayer, or something you can give.

This past year I'd say has been the hardest but they have just progressively gotten harder. However, I need Ames...I need her to make it through this and I need help. I'm actually asking for help....

She is in the hospital every other week and not for a day or 2 but for awhile....she gains fluid and needs to be drained and every time she goes Dr's say its worse. We live in Myrtle Beach, SC...I moved her here with me. I've had to take her now as far as Savannah,GA to get care. Thank God we have a few friends here to help out but it is always expensive. Gas, hotel stays, medicine, appointments. Amy doesn't have insurance here. I've been fighting for whatever care I can get for her but I'm not in tip top shape either. Anyone that knows me, knows I try my damndest for others...including my baby sister and that's why I haven't sought help but it's getting to be more and more difficult. I just pray she makes it to the next appointment, the next obstacle...keeps fighting. If you can help in any, any way, we appreciate it so, SO much.