Continued custody of my daughters

Basics*single mother needing support *custody case If you feel called to donate please do. For my truth and the reason I am asking for support please read below.
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Namaste, I am a single mother to these incredible angels. I was in a manipulative, dark and abusive relationship with their father. We escaped polyamory, violence & poverty by the grace of God. I have been supporting my goddess girls financially/physically/emotionally their entire lives. I am healing from his ability to manipulate and control me but I still fall for his lies. This year I believed we would be meeting up in California and I brought the children here for a visit. I planned a tour and a YTT to pay for the journey. We landed in LA on a layover and he served me papers trying to establish three months a year custody. They have no desire to be away from mommy for extended periods of time. We don't even believe it's natural in our case because of the series of abandonment/poverty/homelessness/violent situations we were in while trying to co-parent with him. Currently he is putting my ability to earn money for my girls in jeopardy as the court papers sanction me to California, and our tour is scheduled for Oregon & NY, then back to our home in Costa Rica for school and work. I desire safety for myself and my children. We desire a very natural, high vibrational lifestyle that is in alignment with our school/church Infinite Source Yoga. We want to continue to be free without worrying what sadness he will cause next, to continue traveling and sharing the messages of the divine love (source energy) and encouraging others and our own healing from trauma. I am wanting to facilitate visitation for him and he has always been welcome to live near us and help with them but taking them away from me after years and years of keeping them alive alone is wrong on every level. Having control over me or Satya and Bhavani after years of surviving without him doesn't make any sense to me. He simply doesn't deserve to dictate our lives. They want to see him but not live with him and his many many multiple and confusing people they don't know. I'm confident I can't fight him in court without a lawyer. He is the most charming. A master at his abilities to manipulate. He will sway this to a place where me and the girls go thru what I went thru with my mom. Persephone's quest. Bouncing back and forth, not to mention being raised by a polyamorous man ISN'T what I agreed to. In the beginning he said we were a family and would get married. When I wouldn't go along with multiple families, he successfully had me believing that I don't have enough love in my heart to accept his daughter with the same sex couple he impregnated. He says I was "violent" when I would get upset because they wouldn't stop asking him to impregnate the other mother with a sibling. It took me years to realize wanting a real marriage and family without polyamory doesn't make me unloving, just me. The violence peaked this fall when he tried to run me over with my own jeep (I have an eye witness) and also lifted a shovel above my head but thank god didn't strike. I am and was super embarrassed of this abuse as I run a healing program for people, how can someone being abused facilitate healing for others? I fearfully kept quiet for years trying to rise and now I realize it's me sharing this trauma that will help others to stand up and trust spirit. If everyone on my Instagram gives 1$ I will have more than enough to cover these costs. And maybe even some left over to donate to other women needing support to keep there babies safe from patriarchal control and abuse. To the woman who wrote me a warning email about him when I was 4 months pregnant I wish I had heeded your warning! To the woman who was donating to my cause during the homelessness and wouldn't keep helping me when he came back into our lives again, I love u and thank you for following your intuition. To my little sister who has always known the truth of his energy, I'm sorry for doubting you all those years ago, I wanted so badly for these mistakes to not be real and resisted your truth. To my boss that had sex w him in our bus and smoked dmt with him while I was homeless w two babies (begging him to be with me), thank you because even though I was mad at the time it was a stepping stone in me not going back for more abuse. Later I realize you were helping me cut the abusive spiritual chords to him.To every person that has watched me struggle with this and still supported me I feel you so deep, thank you! I am grateful, so grateful for your donation. Our retainer to get started is 8k. Anything helps! I will no longer believe he is going to change. I just have to wipe the tears and fight for my daughters protection and peace. In sovereignty, trust and prayer Yours All waysAshley Ogyogini