So here we are the last piece of my story. The grand finale of the life of Belinda Heron. I have been going to do this for a while and just couldn’t find the words to write down.

For those of you who know me my life and the life of my kids has not been easy by any means but none of us would change anything because this has been our life.

Trying to put into words that I’m dying of cancer is the easy bit. It is what it is and I am grateful for my life and all of its twists and turns…

The hard bit- no the unbelievable and heartbreaking but is leaving my children and grandson behind. They have forever been my world and my reason to live. I can’t put into words how hard it is to know that very soon, too soon, I will not be here to see all their milestones not just weddings, birthdays and things like that, I mean not laying on the bed together talking about their day. The not washing their clothes or just their beautiful radiant personalities and smiles. I just love them all so very very much and can’t bare to leave them behind. But leaving them behind is what I have to do and that has broken me every minute of every day.

All my children will need everyone’s love and support in the coming weeks and months so please don’t cross the road, give them a hug and please please remind them every time how much I love them and I would never have left them alone to navigate life at such a young age.

My main worry and fear is for Bobby, been orphaned at such a young age, and yes we all know he’s my blue eyed boy, he’s my baby, he’s 15 years old and needs me more then ever so this is for him. He needs a mum and that’s Sallyanne. He has hand picked this angel himself and has been spending more and more time with them. I feel so very blessed that he has her in his life, but I need to try and make this transition as easy as possible for all of them so this is where the go fund me comes in. This is not about my funeral or a grand exit as I don’t want one. It’s about Bobby having all he needs without worry.

He’s going to need his own room with his own space to navigate the cruel journey he has to go on. His sisters and brothers need to be exactly that his siblings and I am in no doubt they are up to the job. But Bobby wants to live with Sallyanne and I get that with the way me and Bobby have always been. So we need not just money but building supplies and labour. Anything to give him his own room within the family he’s chosen for himself. Going to my grave knowing he has this family is the most important thing for me beyond anything else. So I’m praying here for some kind of miracle from people who can help give him this because believe me he deserves it.

Thankyou for reading and god bless you all, Belinda ❤️