who ever is gonna read this, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

First of all i apologize i have nowhere else to turn, one 

 My name is renante balbuena , im originally from Philippines i been working abroad for long long time, i been living abroad for 8yrs to support my mom and sisters and now i got wife name illene and we having a baby next month. April 2022.

i never got a chance to be with them on birthdays, Christmas or any holidays non of it. My only happiness is to see them on one picture happy and healthy even im out of the photo, but i feel like its time to go back home my journey was started in Saudi Arabia as a driver for 3yrs . Became cleaner in cruiship for 1yr. 

Then got lucky im now in the US for 4yrs I thought everything will be amazing once I got here. i got to the point that i lost my father 2019 october, then next month is my baby sister passed away too, she has special needs and she’s the princess of our family Same year! Two important member of my family died (In the photo) never got a chance to say goodbye to them, 

 now i don’t wanna lose anyone of my family i want to go back home for good specially im about to be a father next month and sad part is I promise to my wife ill be home before she give birth unfortunately its not gonna happen im not able to go home this year coz no, if i give them time we don’t have money, if i can give money they don’t have me, i can’t be there and earn money at the same time, i need to stay in the US working in restaurant shucking oyster for another year hopefully save atleast 20k which impossible” i walk 40minutes every day from home to work coz I don’t have car. Being immigrant is not easy. People think im living the American dream, but im sure not. I wish i can find a job remotely with only requires laptop and wifi and just go back home be with them. Hopefully my instagram got monetize or any social media, this social media platforms are the only small windows of opportunity i can see right now.