Baby Ezra Das' Memorial Services

Hello,

On October 5th at 3:50am, I gave birth to Ezra Franklin Das. Only being 21w along my sweet boy was not yet developed enough to survive outside my womb.

I have an “incompetent cervix” meaning that without reason, my cervix began to dilate… without any outside influence or even contractions. I left work early on October 3rd and went straight to the ER for cramps and bleeding. An exam was performed determining that my amniotic sac was visible and the doctor was able to feel Ezra’s little foot. From there I was admitted and immediately placed on bedrest with hope that things would calm down and the doctors would be able to perform a cerclage to manually close my cervix and give Ezra time to grow a little more. On the 4th I was taken off strict bedrest and given bathroom privileges (allowed to shower and use the toilet rather than having a Foley catheter any longer). Late that evening I began to have increased cramping which then led to intense contractions and ultimately the breaking of my water. They listened for his heart beat, which was completely normal and perfect throughout all of this, but determined that it was becoming very faint and it was time for me to push. I pushed for a few short minutes. I felt him be delivered and was able to hold him, hold his little hands and keep him warm until I was rushed to the OR for hemorrhaging. I was brought back to my room and was able to hold Ezra until his little heart needed a rest. I knew my baby boy had gone to be with Jesus. I can’t say that my faith has been strong and I never imagined my first pregnancy to have turned out this way. My heart yearns for my baby. I want him here. I want to be able to hold him, feed him, watch him grow and be silly. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever endured and wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. The pain, the screams, the tears. I just want my baby and to understand why something like this could happen to a person. Matt, although grieving also, has been my anchor through it all. He never left my side and has coached me through the painful waves of emotion. We have shared love for each other and for our baby boy. We will continue to hold on to the joy of knowing he is perfect from head to toe. His spirit is with the lord and he will forever be loved, and at peace.

We are now unfortunately quickly faced with the cost of funeral services. We were surprised with how much funerals cost for not having to do one before. We are choosing to go through All Funeral Services and Cremation and Ezra will be buried at the Evergreen Cemetery. The donated funds will be used to pay for the Funeral home costs, flowers, baby casket, clergy services, the cemetery plot, opening/closing of grounds and any other associated costs. We decided on this cemetery because it is a beautiful cemetery in southern Colorado Springs and Ezra will be with all the other angel babies.

We thank you in advance for your continued love and consideration with helping us through this hard time and we love you.

Please feel free to share this Go-Fund Me in memory of Ezra Franklin Das