Aid for Juanita's Family: Health and Hope

Hello everyone, my name is Juanita. I wanted to reach out to the community, family and friends asking for help. I always felt bad asking for help but as time is continuing to go I see how my family does need help, and my concern has always been my children to have what they need. I know what is like to go without at one point in my life I lived in my car or I bounce from couch to couch, hotel to hotel. It's something I never wanted for my children, I'm grateful for the help family and friends have given us. And I'm extremely grateful for my husband, despite the hurdles thrown at us he always keep us upfloat and goes far and beyond for our family. At times he feels guilty wishing he could do more and I can't help but feel bad cause I know it's been tough on him with everything going on. Like losing his father as we were finding out i was pregnant again and as my last pregnancy was ending for us to meet our little boy my health started to decrease. And its only gotten worse. At times it's painful to walk, or to even get out of bed. When our 4 month old or 2 year old just wants to be held I feel guilty cause it's painful for me at times to pick them up or hold them. It saddens me to see how much my body has changed cause I always wanted to be in the best shape to give my children my all. At times I can't help but cry wishing I had answers to what's going on, to the pain I feel daily, or to all the pokes and testing I have to do . But through it all my husband was there my rock, my best friend, my partner. Assuring me that I'm doing enough, how my children love me no matter what, how he loves me no matter, as long as we have faith in jehovah and lean on him it will be okay. He has given me unconditional love even when I cried as I saw my hair falling out began to have patches of balding. It's crazy some people said it's just hair but to me it made me feel beautiful. As I saw it fall as my husband shaved it off I felt like I was slowly falling apart. But I prayed to jehovah for strength, calmness and patients. I also thank him for my best friend ( my husband) cause he always makes sure i know how much he loves me for me. But as my health changed so did my boys. My 2 year old eating stlye started to decrease badly even though it's been a year that we've raised concerned and done everything recommended to us. it is now affecting his health, so now my son has to see a occupational and food therapist in hopes that it will help and our 4 month old has his own digestive situation as well still it being unknown if he'll surgery. Even though we have done the best we can it has taken a toll on us finically. Unfortunately I'm not able to work or drive so my husband has to miss work from doctor appointments for me and kids. Between hospital visits and specialist appointments it has not only taken a toll on us finically but transportation as well . With us only having one vehicle (which is doing it time) as much as we would love a more stable car finically it's not possible for a down payment. And each time we start getting finically stable something tends to happen. Between the alternator, head gasket, no AC or head lights, stuff that adds up money that we dont have. With us living in a small town in georgia everything is a hour away therapy sessions, hospitals visits qand doctor appointments. Which to some people it's a easy fix for some stuff Unfortunately it's not like we can spare $100 to get things fix. We are also making sure our 2 little ones have what they need and as well as my 10 year old who I co-parent with. It has been tough for the boys having to be in that car with no AC in this hot summer to where we've had to post pone appointments. On top that we've been trying to catch up with bills and still get what our children need. Food, formula, diapers wipes and with my daughter going to school, school supplies. At times i feel defeated as a mom I don't want my children to go with out and I couldn't be prouder of my husband doing the best he can. For me it's guilt that my health is like this wishing I could do more feeling like I failed as a mom, it breaks my heart. But I am truly grateful for the help family and friends have given us especially their prayers. Humbly thankful that jehovah has been with us every step of the way and has given us the strength, love, patience, understanding and comfort we need.

At times it's hard to admit when one is not okay. Or when one is in need of help or to even ask for it.

Gofundme I did it for my children, to be able to put food on the table, to fix our only transportation to make it more stable for our boys, to catch up on bills, make sure my children have what they need either is school stuff, food, formula, diapers(pullups) or wipes.

Again thank you all for your advice, your help, your prayers or just a simple I understand where your coming from.