i'm ash, a 23 year old disabled lesbian currently living in a home with a toxic and abusive father. he is financially and emotionally/verbally abusive towards my family and i cannot get a regular job as i am physically disabled and cannot afford to move out on SSI payments alone, leaving me no other choice but to crowdfund to have any hope to get out of my current living situation.

here is a link to a google drive showing how his aggression relates to our living conditions. he is a destroyer of places in the home and takes his anger out on things around us as a scare tactic and speaks proudly about his emotional outbursts afterwards as if he did something good.

all he cares about himself. when i tried to take my own life the first call i got from him at the hospital was wondering how much it'll cost. i when i got sexually assaulted he told me i should've been wearing something more modest. he denies any and all abuse he put me through as a child and even now gaslights me constantly. he is a liar and more.

anything helps. i'm just looking for a way out. i don't feel safe here and i'm not sure what else to do.