HI, i am a 35 yr old female. And Honestly tired and exhausted to the core! I have been fighting different kinda battles my whole life, and i feel sick of life atm :*(. I find it very hard to keep moving forward, when every step i take i get set back triple!

A quick backstory. I have been in and out of fostercare myself because my mum couldnt take care of me at that time. When i was 15 i met my narcistisch ex, we had 3 children. My first born daughter was stillborn, and then had 2 boys. Boys are currently 15 n 16 and living with grandmother in another country, we have little contact because they make it hard to reach out because i left their dad. (Long story).

I met my current partner 9 yrs ago, we have a beautifull babygirl together. I had a very rough and hard pregnancy and birth, there were big complications at birth where we almost both lost our lives, she was born trough emergency c section, after birth we was both transfered to another hospital that could potentially offer us more. Ever since then has also been battle after battle. We still get check ups every so often, she has speech therapy 2x aweek. A problem with the eyes, and also possibly getting diagnosed with autism. She had severe burn marks from an accident with boiling water. While having to deal with everything alone i am also trying to keep going on in life. I am falling behind on payments, My car broke down 2 months ago and cant afford another 1, i walk to alot of places or take the bus.. which also cost a fortune, i am struggling to keep ends meet I have tried also taking on extra jobs but it was draining me more.

I have so much more to say, if i shared all it wouldnt even fit in 1 book. i am happy to share my story more with those that want!

For now i seek help!! HELP ME!!... i just for once want a little push in the right direction, my daughter turns 4 on february 7th and i have yet to celebrate her birthday with her once! All my money isnt near enough for expences and w.e is left goes for bills. My partner isnt working currently and have very low income. Can life just give me a break, can you help me catch a break, catch up with bills and have a good holiday with no stress. Please spare what you can, every little bit helps. I am in desperate need of help and am now 3 month behind on rent and about to lose my home.

Reach out to me please!