I am Karine, a 39 years old mother and a teacher for 16 years.
I have 2 daughters Luna (10 yo) and Cleo (6 yo)
I am an elementary school teacher who used to teach in schools in USA (MA, CA and NJ)
I had to go back to France because I couldn't have a visa even if my school applied for me to have a green card.
I loved the time I spent in the US, it was a great experience to discover an other country.
I met wonderful people from all over the world and I remember each of them. They are a part of who I am today.
My oldest daughter, Luna, is born in California.
Cleo, my youngest daughter is born in Paris.
Teaching have always been a way for me to help children to have a normal life when theirs are difficult at home, to bring them what they need to build their own beautiful life and to add a smile on their face everyday !
I always try to bring them what would be the best for them even if I have to buy school supplies, pedagogical books or children books with my own money.
There is my Facebook life and my real life...
This is what most of you are not aware of :
I grew up in an abusive family and I faced several traumatic experiences but I always kept going whatever happened to me.
When your mother try to kill herself in front of you when you are 12 yo, you think that nothing would hurt you that bad... but life can be hard...
Whatever happened to me, I tried to face everything.
School helped me to open my mind, to think for myself, to become someone different from my family's members. That's why I wanted to be a teacher.
People who know my past, always say that I am a strong woman. But I just didn't have the choice.
People who don't know me wonder why I'm always smiling... maybe to hide my wounds.
Since I became a mother, after months and months of fertility treatments, I have no right to give up... never. I have to fight everyday in order to protect my children.
I have to deal with the problems and my daughters just have to be happy... and work well at school ! This is my main goal as a mum... not so easy.
Taking care of others is what I know the best...
I took care of my sick mother for 30 years and I was there for her till her last breath 1 year ago.
She passed away in my arms after 3 months of a horrible battle against lungs cancer.
Not so many people know that my own health is not that great since I am 18 years old but I do not complain and I hang in there.
I still can work so I'm kind of fine.
For months now, I struggle but I didn't find any solution.
I am in a bad place right now and I realize at almost 40 years old that I have no family to relay on... Just nobody.
I always found a way to keep going, never asking for anything, always counting on myself.
Today I understand why people say that family is important. I never understood this because I never had one. I only had my mother who wasn't really there for me as a mom.
I helped my father when he needed and who disapeared when I lost my mum, letting me taking care of everything for her last 3 months, doctors appointments, chemo... even if I live more than 400 miles away from her. I worked all week with my students and took trains in order to stay with her every 2 weekends at the hospital, trying to ease her pain.
My father just keeps calling me when he needs money without asking me how I am.
He created a new life with a woman and her family... My daughters and I do not exist for him anymore.
I even had to pay for my mother's grave stone because he didn't want to spent money for her. He took what she had and disapeared.
So, for the first time of my adult life I really feel the need to have a mom. I just need to be reassured and supported.
Today I fight against a new battle that affect my 2 young daughters and this hurts me so badly.
I have to face a divorce and I don't want my kids to lost their new home.
They are so much in pain, that I want to keep their home where they feel safe and happy. That's why I really need your help.
They told me that they love their new house and they do not want to leave it... neither do I.
I put all the money I saved in order to have my first own house... and I'm going to lost it if I don’t find people who are willing to help.
The day we had to move in our brand new house was the day I lost my mother.
I had to cancel the rental truck and hurry to the hospital to be there for her last moments.
I spent 7 hours at the hospital in a small room with her... talking to her, telling her how much I love her, whispering her that everything is going to be ok... It's still hard to think about this tragic night.
So, in November 2017, I had a home but no more mother.
She was always smiling when I was with her... even on this day, when she was so much suffering. It was 10 days before she passed away.
After all, every dreams and the huge amount of energy I put in my house are also going to disapear soon... Foreclosure is the next step. That’s why I'm asking for your help.
For months, I live in a tiny studio apartment every 10 days when my daughters are with their father in the house. It's kind of depressing and cold.
I'm loosing everything I built and my goal is to find a way to keep our home and to protect my kids to new disturbing changes in their lives.
After 15 years of taking care of my husband and my 2 daughters, I have to continue without him.
I helped him in his career, finding him several jobs, telling him and support him for going back to school, helping him to create his own business... I worked really hard in order to pay the bills for so many years, taking care of everything and everyone.
Today, I don't have the money to keep my home, to pay for an attorney in order to protect my kids and to be able to afford what's coming next.
The more money I'm going to raise, the more I have a chance to find a way to keep our little home.
I never asked for any help... until today.
I was always the helper... I have been raised in order to take care of others.
But now, I have to hide my pride, be humble and show that I'm not that though woman I always shown I am.
So, if you can help my daughters and I, I would continue to believe that when you do good, something comes back to you one day if you need it.
Whatever life is going to bring me, I'll continue to protect Luna and Cleo and to teach my little students with all my heart.
I want to continue to bring them what they need to become some nice, happy and responsible adults who have empathy and who are willing to help others.... and to take care of the nature too.
Please, help me save our home from foreclosure.
Make my 2 wonderful daughters keep smiling...
THANK YOU !... from the bottom of my heart.
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