Father and son

Anyone who knows me knows that my son, MJ, is the most important thing in my life and that I love him more than anything. There is nothing that i wouldn't do for him. He's a wonderful boy who loves his dad. I'm currently going through a divorce which is tough enough for everyone involved as is. What's even more unfortunate is that things were said, things that are not true, which have kept me from seeing my son in almost a year. I have been fighting these false statements and accusations for months now and was finally granted a victory. We go back to court again in February. In the meantime I've been granted weekly visitation with my son. The issue is that the visits have to be in Monterey and I must cover all costs in order to see my son. My estranged wife has made it clear that she will not offer any assistance or put any effort towards my son and I maintaining contact which means it's up to me to find the supervised visitation provider, call and make all arrangements set up visits and make it to Monterey once a week. I have not seen my son in months. He needs his dad. I found out that he's been acting out in school. Was asked not to come back to his after school program and is in danger of being placed in an online "virtual" school. He's 6 years old! He is acting out due to the stresses put on him from the divorce and the fact his mom feeds him information he's not old enough to understand. I Know it's also in large part due to him not being able to see me. The last time I saw him, he cried when it was time to leave and when asked why said he was sad because he didn't know when he'd see me again? It kills me to think of my son missing me, needing me and I'm not there or, God forbid, thinking I'm not there is his fault. This situation caused me to lose a great job and while I've been working I cannot afford to pay the cost it'll take in order to see him once a week. With supervised visitation I'm responsible for paying a visitation monitor to attend the weekly visits, to pay an initial set up fee which varies in price between $75-$100, plus the monitors travel/mileage. i don't have a vehicle at the moment so I'll have to cover gas etc for someone to take me or to take the bus which costs about $45 each way. This isn't about me, this is about a father who loves his son and a little boy who wants and needs his dad, as he's voiced many times. unfortunately the person who is in the way of this is choosing to be difficult out of spite. I don't know exactly how much it will cost for weekly visits and transportation between now and February but any and all donations will solely be used to ensure we can maintain our relationship. I know that once MJ sees that I'm doing all I can to get to him he'll start to improve on his school and home life. Any donations received will be greatly appreciated by us both and if there's anything left over by the time of our next hearing it will be spent on new dinosaur books and toys for MJ. I don't expect people to pay my entire way, any money I can from my checks will be going towards the visits as well. it'd be wonderful if I could see him every week but being a reasonable person I can't expect it. I hope to make it as often as possible. Right now I'm talking with the different agencies to see which seems like a good fit? Looking forward to seeing my boy and just being with him and letting him know that daddy loves him so much. I'm wondering how much he's grown since I saw him last? The holidays are approaching and I know a visit would be a wonderful gift for us both. I thank you for taking the time to read this. If you're able to make a donation I'll be eternally grateful. If not, please keep my son and I in your prayers? No child should have to cry out for a parent and that parentnnot be there. Help me answer my son's cry. Thank you