Hi there, my name is Nadine (Aiyana), Im a 36 year old single woman who set out on a soul journey from Australia in October 2015, with no plan or timeframe. I allowed myself to follow the calling of my soul, my spirit guides and my heart. That path led me to Nepal. The call for solitude and the mountains was deep, to walk alone and to feel into what my soul longed for. 

On the 1st January after much preperation, I was forced to surrender everything of my old life. I was guided to sit and meditate and do nothing, go nowhere and just let go of all planning. I sat for weeks in the listening, unsure of what was happening to me as i learned to surrender to the divine will. It was one of the most difficult processes I have ever been through. I learned just to BE here. Nothing else.

One night I was walking home late when a young homeless boy ran up to me begging me for money and food. He said he had no Mama or Papa. He was tiny, malnourished, dehydrated,  and was wearing filthy rags. I was shocked he was out so late at night and would sleep on the street, alone, with no blankets, almost lifeless. My awakened heart was so full of compassion I sat with him on the street in tears. I asked him where his mother was, and he looked straight into my eyes and said "you're my Mama". I said ok, then you can come home with me. He came home with me that night in January and has been with me ever since. 

Living life in the NOW is surrendering to the unknown. I could never have predicted that Great Spirit would bless me with a 15 year old child overnight, and that my life would change forever. But I became a Mum for the first time and it is the greatest experience of my life. I never knew what my decision would involve. It has given me a deep purpose and for the first time in my life I am committed to following this all the way.

My life has become very simple in Nepal as I learn to be with my son. We have a simple room with bathroom in a lovely family run guesthouse. Often we have no power, and no water. Our days are spent simply living, experiencing the joy of life and learning and teaching one another so many things. 

I support Jivan fully with a home, food, clothes. Already he has grown taller and much stronger as he has adjusted to eating three meals a day (plus snacks!). He is a growing young man who is fully flousihing in health, vitality, life force, character, energy and love. When I picked him up he was barely conscious. He is fully illuminated, smart, creative, confident and 'full power' as they say here in Nepal. 

Jivan loves to dance, sing, he loves music, sports, biking, drawing and learning so many things. He is very social and we make friends wherever we go. Many people in our community here are in full support of us. Jivan has many role models everywhere now to guide him,  we have established a strong community of Nepalese family, Aunties and Uncles everywhere, older brothers and sisters, grandparents and friends. 

Jivan was living on the streets for about 5 years, his father died, his mother remarried and left with her husband and left him behind. He was living on the streets with many of the young homeless kids. They are all beautiful. Many of them sleep up a big tree, some on the streets. I have got to know some of them well, and when we see them I take them out for meals, I have given them clothes and so much love. Jivan loves his friends so much, they are his family. But how they survive here like this is a miracle, through the cold winter. They are  so courageous. 

Jivan has experienced the possibility of what he can do with his life. There are so many options for him here. He can go to school, get an education, study, work, travel. Whatever he wants. He is nearly 16 years old and has his whole life ahead of him. He is independent and free.  I want him to have the best chance possible. This has also meant me staying in Nepal longer to set him up in the most loving, stable environment and to explore our options.

My staying in Nepal longer and looking after my child, has also meant I am nearly out of money. I havent worked since october last year, and I have no current income, however i am trying to make a small amount of rupees here doing orthobionomy. I am down on my last dollars, wtih no ticket out of here, nor any plan to leave yet.

My intention at the beginning of this trip was to travel on to India after Nepal to study yoga. There is a possibility Jivan can also travel to India, as he can travel there without a passport or visa. He also loves yoga and meditation. He cannot start school before May when the new year starts, if he chooses to go to school. So we have some time.  And we have lots of options. But we have no money.

I am gathering all my courage to put this calling out to anyone who can help us. I have never before asked for help. And rarely do I ask even my own family. I am very independent and have never been in this position before. But now I have to think of my son and our future. And I need to ask for help. 

Any money donated would go towards supporting our daily living needs, food, lodging, clothes. It would provide me an opportunity to stay here in Nepal as long as needed to get things set up. It could give us an opportunity to take a holiday, towards education, and longer term support once I leave Nepal. It is not currently possible for Jivan to come back to Australia or NZ with me, so my support will be via distance. It also means in the longer term Jivan needs somewhere to live once I leave. 

I also support some of the other kids here, who need food and clothes. Any other money goes towards helping them also. They are beautiful children who need some love. They have very little. I also support a local family who cooks for us so we can save money. A single Mum with her two boys cooks ouside on a small fire twice a day and has fully supported us. She has no money herself so I buy food for her family and she feeds us. I am so grateful to these graceful people.

My other money has flowed around, supporting many small businesses who are struggling in the current climate. Tourism here is low after the earthquake so many businesses are struggling. There has been a blockade on the Inidan border for gas and fuel supplies, meaning gas and fuel are extremely expensive. This has a huge impact for people that have little money. So I spread my money within the community, helping wherever I can and trying to spread it around. 

I have surrendered my life to be here in service. I have faith that this is what the divine plan is and that I will be supported fully. I trust the process of life and i know part of that journey is to empty out everything. I have emptied out! I have nothing left but love.

I priestess my way everywhere I go, and my work for shifting the collective consciousness is deep. I am a light worker, and in service to help birthing a divine new humanity. I consciously work with many men and women to help bridge the union of the divine feminine and divine masculine energies. I am also a healer and everything I do is born out of love and innocence. 

I hope to raise money to support me here on this earth walk, my mission, my soul purpose and to help support me along the way. I am in the deepest gratitude for any donations, even a small amount makes a huge difference. 

I send a huge heartfelt hug to all my global community, to my friends and family, and to strangers who may hear this calling. I pray everyday for miracles and from my deep heart, I love you all. Thankyou for taking the time to read this. And please share it if you know anyone who can help us.