This is OUR STORY that will one day lead us to our dream, our gift, our baby! As long as I can remember, I have always wanted to be a mother. I have always had a very nurturing spirit toward others; it is just who I am.
I begin to plan "my" big dream of motherhood as I got older and began to think about marriage and family. My big dream was to have kids by a certain time in my life, to be the best mother possible and to live life to its fullest:.but I (we) would soon learn that God had other plans and they were not "my" big dream plans!
Jayson and I were married April 19, 2008 and on that day I married the man I knew God had set aside for me. I truly believe he is my soul mate and that I will spend the rest of my life with him. On April 19th, I got two gifts, the gift of a husband and the gift of my stepson, Lil J. Lil J. was a blessing and all we needed at that time, but we already knew that we wanted to grow our family in the future. In 2009, we began to focus on "growing" our family. However, months went by and no baby : mum, but we never thought or imagined that there may be underlying physical problems, but just to be sure, I went to see my physician. After a few medicated cycles that ended up with no pregnancy, I decided to change doctors. God knew exactly who that doctor should be because this doctor was able to immediately reveal the problems that were prohibiting us from conceiving.
After a few test we learned that my fallopian tubes were obstructed and surgery was necessary to correct the problem. No big deal, right:? Surgery was scheduled for April of 2010 and we were advised with good news, news that we had a very good chance of conceiving and our child would soon be with us. Well, eight long months passed and still no positive pregnancy test. To be honest, somewhat discouraged, we decided it was time to see our doctor again. After he ordered more tests we found out I had developed what is called Hydrosalpinx, which is fluid that settles in the tubes. The fluid was a definite sign that my tubes had reversed and were blocked once again. This was definitely not what we were hoping to hear, but we still kept our faith and our hope in the only ONE that could help us. That faith and hope was in Christ Jesus. Through this whole journey, we have tried our best to let the Lord lead us on the right path and lead us in making the right decisions that will always bring honor and glory to Him.
We were told about IVF, and it sounded very exciting, but financially IVF just seemed so BIG and completely out of "our" reach. We continued trying to conceive in hopes of our miracle. More months passed and even another year went by with no baby. I knew that through God all things are possible and that even through blocked tubes, we could conceive, so we just kept trusting in Him and trusting in His master plan. Was this always easy? Definitely not!
Well, 2012 was upon us and the earnest desire of my heart was to be a mother. We decided it was time to take the next big step and that was consult with an IVF physician in Raleigh, NC. The date for this consult was on February 14th, none other than Valentine's Day. I knew this would be a turning point in our journey since this very day was known as A DAY OF LOVE. At that doctor's visit, we found out that if we wanted to proceed with IVF, I would need to have yet another surgery to remove both damaged tubes. Removing the tubes would increase our success rate and give our embryos the best chance possible to survive. Moving forward with that information, as scary as it was, we prayed desperately and surgery was scheduled for August of 2012.
Of course, I was very hesitant to have this surgery. Removing my tubes would forever take away our chances of conceiving our baby the natural way. None-the-less, we knew that God had a plan and His hand was guiding us every step of the way. It was nerve racking to know that for us to have a chance at having our baby, we would have to spend $15,000-$17,000 out of pocket for every IVF cycle. Unfortunately our insurance does not cover the expenses of infertility or anything related to infertility.
By faith, in need of a financial miracle, we moved forward and with a very strong support team behind us, it came to be! For us to even have the opportunity of the awesome gift of IVF was more than amazing! Thanks to my amazing awesome family and friends we were able to have several fundraisers to help support our financial needs and there were many, even strangers, that gave us gifts of $love$. Without ALL of them we would have never been able to continue on this journey. We were so moved by the love and support that we were blessed with by so many giving of their time, their money but most importantly their prayers. All of that made our walk through IVF a lot easier.
Almost a year to the date of our Valentine's Day consult in 2012, we were going through the IVF process, which was definitely a process! Lots of medicine, lots of shots, lots of uncertainty, but at the same time it blessed us in more ways than we have time to share. However, sadly the day came to have our pregnancy blood work done and unfortunately, we got the news that the cycle was not successful and we were not pregnant. As difficult as that was hear from our doctor, we knew that God was in control of exactly what He was doing on our behalf.
Thankfully we had one embryo that we were able to freeze in hopes of "THAT ONE" being our baby. We decided to take a break and to just let God continue to guide us into the right timing to use our frozen embryo & this is where we are in our journey as I write OUR STORY. Of course, to use our last embryo more finances are involved. We have been encouraged to share OUR STORY once again with all of you in hopes that we can reach our financial goal in order to have our baby.
If you cannot give any monetary gifts, that is okay, we will cherish and appreciate each and every prayer that you lift up to our Lord on our behalf. We are grateful for how far God has brought us in this journey and for the gifts He has already blessed us with. We will always wait on Him to provide our dream, our hopes, our gift:.our baby in His timing.
Thank you in advance, from the depths of our hearts, for any gift of love you may be able to share with us.
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