Hi... my name is Melody I live in Glendale, Arizona.. I am a single widowed mother just trying to keep my head above water and provide the best I can for my children. This is really hard for me, to put myself out there like this and ask for any kind of help... I've had what you could say is the last few years from hell, this is not something that I normally would do and I have the hardest time asking people for help but I am at point right now that I need to make a change in my life and my circumstances have gone a little South. My husband passed away two years ago unexpectedly and even though we were not together at the time, we were separated...he was still my husband and he was still the father of my children. So him not being here to help has been very difficult. I was then in a relationship with an alcoholic that turned abusive. I struggled for a long time to get out of that relationship and now that I am, I need to move on and make a drastic change in my life as well as my children's lives. My ex created a lot of damage throughout the house broken doors lots of holes in the walls and it's going to cost me to fix those as well and of course he's not willing to help with any of that so I'm left to do it on my own. The home that I am currently in is very expensive, I was managing and making things work but it has been quickly draining me. I realized that I needed to move to ultimately cut costs but to create a fresh start for my family. I found a new home that is going to save me quite a bit of money a month but the day after I put my deposit down the restaurant I work for closed suddenly with no notice and I was laid off. We receive survivor benefits from when Frank died, so I will be able to handle monthly expenses between that and unemployment, barely but it will get us by until I figure out my employment situation... I now have an extremely high electric bill and moving costs that are coming up very quickly. I was approved for unemployment but I have yet to receive and it is about a quarter of my salary and have applied for the assistance that may be needed such as foodstamps.. I sucked up my pride and did the applications I don't know if I'm approved yet because that process takes some time. I worked very very hard for many years to not have to be on any type of assistance, but circumstances have changed. I have not looked for a new job yet because I am moving quite far from my current location and I need to make sure that we are settled before I make any decisions on that aspect. Deciding to move was a huge decision for me and a huge decision for my family but ultimately I think it is the best decision as we all need to move on and heal from the things that have happened the last 2 years. Our family desperately needs a fresh start, and I need to try to heal and get out of this dark hole of depression that I have found myself in. Again I do not do very well asking people for help but I'm at a point right now where I feel like I don't have a choice. Moving costs are rising and school starts in less than 2 weeks. I have yet to do one Speck of school shopping, all of the kids are going to a new schools which is going to be hard in itself and my son is going to be a freshman and there are a lot of costs associated with that at his new school that I was not quite expecting Etc. I've worked hard my entire life many and most times carrying two plus jobs...this is the first time that I haven't been working ( although it's only been a little over a week) in I don't know how long... I don't plan on being out of work for too long but it seems to be a blessing in disguise because I have so much to do to prepare and transition through this move. I am scared to death because I don't know how I'm going to feasibly afford all of the costs now that I'm laid off and my last paycheck that I received from my employer was not what I thought it was going to be and significantly less due to labor cost cuts which I understand from their business aspect but I was very unprepared for this. Another part of the reason I'm moving, because I have been unable to save any money due to the high cost of my current home. I'm sure that some people may think "Why would she move if she can't afford it?" When I originally decided to move I still have my job this all happened so fast and moving into this new home is going to significantly help our future cost and my stress level as well as it may also enable me to go back to school. I so badly need to change my environment and where I am as there are so many bad memories in this home and with the depression I've been suffering from the last 6 + months has really made it hard for me to handle this house as it is quite large. I'm a little scared and a little nervous of this entire transition especially moving so far away from where I currently am but it is an amazing opportunity and an amazing house that I'm getting for an amazing price. I truly believe that it's all in God's timing and it's definitely God's work to help piece my life back together. I am definitely taking Faith over Fear at this moment but I can't help to have the fear of not being able to afford all of the moving costs as well as taking all of my kids school shopping that I've never had an issue doing before Etc when I put the deposit down for this house I had no idea that I wasn't going to have a paycheck not coming in but if I stay in the current home that I am I know definitely I'm not going to be able to afford it now so ultimately this move has to happen. I'm not the kind of person to look for a handout either I work for everything that I have and try my best to teach my kids the same but if you can find it in your heart to even donate $5 towards this transition and the school shopping for them I would be more appreciative and greatful than you will ever know. The electric bill I am looking at this month is going to be about $700 and that is just for one month doesn't include the one that is due next week which is almost $600 along with a high water bill because I just had to fill my pool not too long ago... so that along with the first month's rent, moving truck moving utility locations, gas, possible and school shopping. It is taking every ounce away from my pride to post and share this but ultimately and in the end I need to make sure that my kids are taken care of. I'm not even sure on the amount to put on the next page because asking for anything makes me feel quite uncomfortable and I don't want to put anything too unrealistic. Thank you again to anyone that is willing to help, I am so grateful from the bottom of my heart.