As I sit here thinking about how to write this, I think to myself – this is not something I want to do or ever thought I would have to do. How do I say what needs to be said without being judged? But this isn’t about me, it’s about my son, Zach. Maybe there is someone going through this same thing or something similar. He is an addict. Those are hard words to say and to hear. He has struggled with this for 12 years now. I have watched him change. I have prayed for him and cried for him. I have hidden this from so many people for fear of judgement. But this isn’t about me, and I don’t care what others think anymore. My son needs help. A couple of years ago Zach went to rehab, got clean and sober, and started getting his life back on track. He met a girl and things were going well for him for a little while. Then they broke up, and he started spiraling into a dark hole again. His escape were the drugs. This time it was different, it was worse than ever before. Not only was he on drugs but severely depressed. About a month ago he came to me broken and at rock bottom. The scary part was he said for him that bottom, is death. No mother ever wants to hear her child has reached a point where their brokenness makes them wish themselves dead. Even though it was very hard for me to hear, like most moms I went into ‘fix it’ mode. I got a second job because I knew it would not be cheap to save my son. I also started doing research on ways to help my child, not only with the drugs but the depression too. Because other rehab facilities had not worked, I knew we needed something different, something that would work this time! During my research I found Serenity in Baja California . They have a different approach to rehabilitation. To help people get clean and stay clean, they work on balancing a person’s brain function. They help addicts determine why they want to do drugs, what their triggers are and how to deal with them. When I read how they approach therapy and rehabilitation I knew this was it! This is exactly what Zach needs. I reached out to Serenity only to find out this treatment program was way beyond what I can afford. And, unfortunately, insurance will not cover any of it either. I had to figure out a way to make this happen. Knowing I can’t give up and the love for my son leads me here – the internet. Zach’s treatment will be a-lot more then I am able to afford. The facility has agreed to let me work on payments. I am working two jobs and cutting cost like crazy, but it is not enough. I have done fundraisers for others, but today I am asking for help for my son. He is committed to making this work and turning his life around. He is not ready to die, and I am not willing to give up. The sober Zach is the most loving, thoughtful, and caring man I know. He has a huge heart and hopes to use the lessons he has learned to help others as he did when he was clean for two years. He started a company called Dallas Harm Reduction to help others and now he needs help. Please help me save my son. Below I have linked the rehab if anyone knows anyone who may need help as well. http://www.serenitybeachibogaine.com Thank you for reading my story, and I am so grateful for any help, even just a little.