Jules Top Surgery
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Hi i’m Jules and I am fundraising for chest reconstruction surgery. I work as public speaker and a coach specialising in mental health and wellbeing.
I have struggled with my body for my whole life suffering with eating disorders from an early age. I starved myself or purged as a way to reduce my chest size and curves. I was completely unaware at the time that this was a symptom of my dysphoria. Gender Dysphoria is when the body a person was born into doesn’t match their gender identity and as a result they experience extreme feelings discomfort throughout their lives.
I have fought hard to deal with complex mental health issues as a young person and have used these experiences to benefit the lives of others within my profession. Throughout my twenties I had multiple severe breakdowns despite maintaining constant therapeutic support. I began questioning if I was transgender four years ago, only to be told by a psychotherapist that I had internalised homophobia. I connected with the term non-binary, but I didn't fully come out, instead I swept this reality under the carpet believing it was easier to blend into the world than it was to be true to myself. By the age of 30 I felt disconnect and lost. My dysphoria became so bad that my mental health started to deteriorate. I was forced to stop working and as a freelancer had to live off my savings, which depleted in the five months I was out of work.
I am on a long waiting list with the NHS Gender Identity Clinic that could take years. Feeling the need to take action as soon as possible I decided to facilitate my own transition. I have been on testosterone for 9 months and already and my mental health has improved significantly. I have had a private assessment with a gender specialist and a consultation with a chest reconstruction surgeon, both have given me the green light to go ahead with the next step in my transition.
Wearing a binder with a larger chest is incredibly uncomfortable I regularly experience back pain and find it difficult to breathe in hot temperatures. I am eager to undergo surgery by the winter so I can fully recover and be binder free by Summer 2019. I will have been on testosterone for over a year and I feel desperate to take this next step.
In the last few months I have felt happier than I ever have, but feeling bound in this way is indescribably uncomfortable and is something that I struggle with every single day. I will be so grateful for anything you can donate to help me towards surgery, even the price of the coffee, everything counts.
Thank you for being part of my journey!
I have struggled with my body for my whole life suffering with eating disorders from an early age. I starved myself or purged as a way to reduce my chest size and curves. I was completely unaware at the time that this was a symptom of my dysphoria. Gender Dysphoria is when the body a person was born into doesn’t match their gender identity and as a result they experience extreme feelings discomfort throughout their lives.
I have fought hard to deal with complex mental health issues as a young person and have used these experiences to benefit the lives of others within my profession. Throughout my twenties I had multiple severe breakdowns despite maintaining constant therapeutic support. I began questioning if I was transgender four years ago, only to be told by a psychotherapist that I had internalised homophobia. I connected with the term non-binary, but I didn't fully come out, instead I swept this reality under the carpet believing it was easier to blend into the world than it was to be true to myself. By the age of 30 I felt disconnect and lost. My dysphoria became so bad that my mental health started to deteriorate. I was forced to stop working and as a freelancer had to live off my savings, which depleted in the five months I was out of work.
I am on a long waiting list with the NHS Gender Identity Clinic that could take years. Feeling the need to take action as soon as possible I decided to facilitate my own transition. I have been on testosterone for 9 months and already and my mental health has improved significantly. I have had a private assessment with a gender specialist and a consultation with a chest reconstruction surgeon, both have given me the green light to go ahead with the next step in my transition.
Wearing a binder with a larger chest is incredibly uncomfortable I regularly experience back pain and find it difficult to breathe in hot temperatures. I am eager to undergo surgery by the winter so I can fully recover and be binder free by Summer 2019. I will have been on testosterone for over a year and I feel desperate to take this next step.
In the last few months I have felt happier than I ever have, but feeling bound in this way is indescribably uncomfortable and is something that I struggle with every single day. I will be so grateful for anything you can donate to help me towards surgery, even the price of the coffee, everything counts.
Thank you for being part of my journey!
Organizer
Jules Haydon Guaitamacchi
Organizer
England
